The Sanatorium Author Sarah Pearse on Writing Closed Room Mysteries & Strong Women

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Mindy: So we're here with Sarah Pearse to talk about her debut novel, The Sanatorium, which is a locked room thriller set in an abandoned tuberculosis sanatorium that has been renovated into a five star luxury resort. So why don't you just start off by telling us a little bit about the book? 

Sarah: The Sanatorium is A is a kind of creepy thriller, and it's set in a luxury hotel called Le Sommet that used to be a sanatorium, and it's really high in the Swiss Alps in a very isolated location. And the book follows Elin Warner, who's a British detective, as she travels to the hotel for her brother's engagement. But things take a really kind of dark and eerie turn when her brother's fiancee, Laure goes missing, and Elin finds she has to step up to the plate to investigate amidst the snowstorm and all kinds of things going on. 

Mindy: It takes place, of course, in a sanatorium, which is fascinating but also the locked room concept, of course, is a wonderful setting and time honored, often used plot device. My audience is mostly writers. So why don't you talk a little bit about, first of all, that concept, the locked room thriller, the element that you use to create that environment in The Sanatorium

Sarah: I love reading locked room thrillers. I kind of grew up on a diet of kind of watching and reading Agatha Christie, who is very much local to my area, and I think there's a real magic in having a group of characters where there's no real kind of room for escape. So not only for a reader is it quite fun because you have a very sort of fixed pool of suspects. But I think it really tests the characters because there is no police that are able to come in. There's no one charging in on a white horse to sort of save the day, so you really get to see what the characters are made of. So I think in The Sanatorium by having the avalanche, and I mean the hotel is already in a very isolated setting, which is because, obviously it was a sanatorium, and that's how they tended to be. You immediately put the characters up against one of the biggest tests of their lives, and I think as a reader, it's fascinating to to put the characters under that pressure and you're reading along with them and feeling their fear. 

Mindy: One of the things that I often talk with thriller writers about one of the first elements that you absolutely must get rid of in order to create any kind of tension is that you have to get rid of your characters phones. 

Sarah: Absolutely. It's a tricky thing when you have a phone. Obviously there's so many aspects where you could lose the tension in a way. So I think you have to be quite clever, where and when that phone can be used. And if the signal is there, I think if you were writing a long time ago, before the advent of mobile phones, it made those cases much easier to write, I think. 

Mindy: Especially when you're working with not only just, like a call for help, just even if someone needs a piece of information, they need to know a critical thing in a moment. You know, if they can just google it, they have a computer in their hands at all times. It's very hard to create a situation where your character is ignorant of just about anything unless they're being Hoodwinked by the other characters.

Sarah: Absolutely. And I think that's probably where the lock door setting, I think if you have things that are set on an island or there's an extreme of weather and the character can be without their phone, I think it opens up a whole world of possibilities. But I think there's elements within the book where Elin does have her phone and she is able to look up certain things which are helpful. Particularly she's a detective there on her own. So it's kind of knowing where and when to have that technology, the key of where and when. It makes a big difference about how your plot plays out.

Mindy: The next thing I really want to talk to you about is the setting itself, the sanatorium having been renovated into a very luxurious setting in the Alps, but it was formerly a tuberculosis sanitarium, So how did you decide that this was the setting number one, and what kind of research did you do on this type of setting? 

Sarah: The whole idea from the book came from the idea of the sanatorium in the hotel aspect of it came after. So we go a lot to Switzerland for our holidays. We lived there, my husband and I in our twenties. So we go a lot of holidays now. And a few years ago I read an article in a local magazine about the history of a Sanatorium in the town and the local area. And there was some great photography of the old building. Um, and it really set my imagination firing. And then, yeah, in the article and the subsequent research I did, I found out some of the old sanatoriums have been converted into a hotel, and even the other way around. At the very beginning, there was a hotel which was then repurposed by a doctor as a sanatorium. And I just thought, Gosh, what a creepy idea this would be to stay in a hotel that had once been a place where there have been a lot of illness, where people have died. How would you feel as a guest?  And I know for me repurposed buildings in general are fascinating. I love the idea that there's a history bubbling beneath the surface, even when you've got, like, a very sort of modern building, even if it's been converted beautifully. And, yeah, the idea came from there.

Mindy: I set a book of mine in an insane asylum that's fairly famous here in Ohio. It's still operating. It has been converted. It's not operating as an insane asylum. Obviously, it has converted into buildings that are incorporated into a university campus. 

Sarah: Oh my, gosh, how interesting. 

Mindy: Yes, it’s so interesting. And so the building is still standing. Parts of it are no longer in use and will more than likely be demolished. But they still have the center of the building and the wing, the men's dormitory is now part of the art department and their offices and things like that. And of course, the building is gorgeous, and I'm so happy that it could be at least partially saved. But of course it's in a college campus, and there are parts of the building in parts of the area that are still you're not allowed to go in them for safety reasons because there's asbestos, and also it's just not entirely safe, especially the female wings. Those haven't seen any work for a very long time. And of course it's a college. So that's what people do. That's what the kids do. They go up and they break into the insane asylum and they go into the sections they are not allowed to. 

Architecture itself, It is fascinating to me. I love old buildings. I love old houses. I love all of that kind of stuff. Of course you are from Britain. I am from the U. S. The house that I live in is really old. It was built in, I think 1857. A Civil War soldier Built it after he got out of the war and I’m always like, Yeah, my house is old, my house is old. Well, I was in London on a trip with some friends, and I was in London, and it's so funny to me how my concept of old just changed so fast when you know, I, like, visited the tower and things like that. 

Sarah: It's amazing. I I don't know if you've heard about some of the mud larking that people do along the Thames where they found old arrowheads really to like the Norman times and it’s crazy thinking of the history. We have some caves. Not very far. Only five minutes from our house. That kind of have lots of the Stone Age remains in pottery in. Yeah, just just amazing. But yeah, that is very old for you guys, isn't it - something in the 1800’s.

Mindy: And I remember I visited the Tower and we were taking our tour with the Beefeaters, and he was talking to us and we were right there, like on the river and these steps that are going down into the river. And he was like, and these are the steps that Anne Boelyn walked up, walked to her death where they chopped her head off over there on that block. And I was like, Wait, like those steps? Like these steps right here? Those steps? And he's like, Yeah, those steps. She walked on those steps. And I was just... like my mind was blown.

Sarah: I know. That's what I think is so wonderful when you have something historical, isn't it where your imagination just sort of fires? I just love the idea that kind of all of that energy might still be lingering from the past. Oh, it's just amazing. 

Mindy: Absolutely. And like I said, as an American when I was in London, I was just like, Wow, I don't even know what old means. 

Sarah: Everywhere you turn, you see a landmark. 

Mindy: Yeah, that's the truth. 

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Mindy: Let's talk a little bit about female characters because your main character, Elin, is a female detective and, of course, has to operate in a really sticky situation and, of course, also a dangerous one. So how did her her gender, her sex, did this come into your choice of using a female detective? And does it connect to any of the themes in the book? 

Sarah: Yeah, very much does so. Primarily, I wanted to have a female detective because I think I've read a few books where the female detectives tend to take on quite sort of almost masculine traits or attributes as a character. So kind of quite suppressed emotion. And I wanted to have a detective, I kind of wanted to break free of that. And I think it makes it quite a challenging character to the reader at times, and to the people around her, but someone who's kind of suffered with anxiety. She's obviously got a complex past going on and she finds out in the book. But I wanted to show someone who I think people would be in real life. I don't think as a detective, you necessarily would have it all together. And I wanted to show that kind of internal thought process of her fears, her anxieties and, yeah, everything about her past that's made her who she is. 

And it kind of very much links in with the theme of the book, which is kind of women's voices. Historically, they've been suppressed or women themselves have felt the need to suppress them in order to kind of fit in in society and in the workplace. Where again, I still think even now there is a very specific way of communicating in large organizations, for example, which tends to be more masculine and I think, feelings have shown that can be a little bit sort of looked down on or people feel like they can't be themselves. So, yeah, I really wanted Elin to be a woman to reflect the themes that I sort of bring up within the novel. 

Mindy: Yeah, definitely. As women. If you're operating in a male space, there is a lot of pressure to not be emotional. 

Sarah: Yeah, and I find that It's a really fascinating concept because I think we've been told that being emotional is almost a bad thing, and that means you can't be taken seriously. But I think women and their emotions and how they relate to the people around them is a real strength. And yeah, I wanted to show that in the book that Elin journeys to a point of strength. But just because she's gone through that journey doesn't make her a weak person. Yeah, I think even now it is still the case that we have to sort of stiff upper lip and button up our emotions. And I think it can be weaponized against us if we are emotional, which is a shame. 

Mindy: Oh, yeah, absolutely it can. I think it's interesting talking about the idea of being a female, and she's operating in a male space, being a detective. I don't know what it's like in Britain, but I can say that as a writer in the US, we hear that phrase “strong female character” so much we roll our eyes. At this point, we're like, yes, strong female character. It's ridiculous to me that you even have to put the word strong in front of it to be like Oh, no, she's not like other women. She's strong. 

Sarah: Yeah, absolutely. You come on a really good point there. I think women are being judged all the time for their behavior and they are put under scrutiny all the time by everyone around them. And I think even sometimes other women - are they being emotional enough? Are they not being too emotional? I don't think women can just BE. And I think you're so right. I think there's like a label that is put on women constantly and that yeah, that idea of being strong automatically implies that women are inherently weak, which is very odd. And what is strong? I think strong is a word again that's often used to define against a male set of values, isn't it?

Mindy: Yes, absolutely. That's something that came up in an interview I was doing with someone else earlier this month. We were talking about that concept, the strong female character and how, for the longest time strength, you know, it meant that she could physically, best someone at something. She was Katniss in the Hunger games. You know, we really, many of us 0 because I write for teens. I'm a YA author - we really pushed back at that because female strength, and male strength too, I mean strength in general, there's different avenues and uses for that word.

I tell this story. So apologies to my listeners if you've heard it more than once. But I do a lot of genealogy. I have a very heavy German line in my family, and I do a lot of genealogy. And the Germans, of course, have like these excellent records, and my family tree had more or less already been done all the way back to the 1500s. On the German side. The Irish one is a huge mess. So that's what I work on. But the German one. It was pretty much done, but I went and, like, you know, Dug around with what other people have found anyway, and I found a woman. It was in the 1500s, you know, lived in just this little village, and I got to looking at some of the dates surrounding her and her Children and her husband's and her marriages. And I got really curious after I started seeing some of these dates pop up because a lot of the information was pulled from church records. 

I put together a calendar. I believe she had 13 Children. She outlived all but one of them. Two husbands. She lost two children… they both died and in the space of a single week, and I think it was a fall 1500s. She had two Children. I believe it was like an eight year old, and, uh, maybe a little one that was younger, die and then a teenage daughter died the week after, so there was more than likely an illness in the household, and she was pregnant. The mother was pregnant while these Children are sick, so she's probably trying to take care of them. All three of them die. She gives birth to the baby and the baby dies the next week. 

Sarah: Oh, my gosh. 

Mindy: She outlived most of her family except for one child. And it's ridiculous. I know. And like some of her grandchildren as well, she outlived. And I always tell people - like this woman more than likely probably could not read or write. She was a German housewife. She was not a liberated woman. She was raising Children and and being a housewife, Yeah, you would never say that this woman isn't strong. 

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Sarah: No, absolutely. When you touched on there about that whole idea of strength being and we spoke about the being held up against that sort of male set of values, I think I don't know how you pull away from that. Because I think as you said before, that idea of physical strength is held up. And if you're writing about a strong woman, they have to be strong, like in a male way, as you were saying about the Hunger Games, they have to be, you know, a  tall muscular, strong woman and that is showing strength. But I agree with you. I think historically and throughout time, women have shown strength in numerous ways that we can't even probably in modern society begin to understand or articulate. But I think that they would have to be such a huge mind shift to go away from what is seen traditionally as strong.

Mindy: So tying into that. One of the themes in your book Is women not being believed. Women being questioned or their word not being taken as seriously as a man's. So tying into that strength and just reliability. How does that play out in the novel? 

Sarah: When I was researching I tied two ideas together here. So you have the idea of the Tuberculosis Sanatorium. But there are also sanatoriums in Switzerland and elsewhere all over Europe, which were more mental institutions, so they weren't called asylums. They were called Sanatoriums and I read a terrifying article in a book about how women were taken essentially to these institutions which were called Sanatorium on the guise that they were ill or unwell. It was basically because often they just had independent thoughts and they spoke up and as women, that kind of wasn't allowed in a way. So yeah, they were taken to these institutions, and quite often some of them lived and died there. So they were taken there in their twenties, thirties, and forties. They were committed on behalf of a family doctor who took the guardian, the father or the husband at their word. And these women were committed.

And it got kind of the idea in my mind, the kind of similar things with the Me Too movement. So how people, women were questioned and their accounts of things were questioned. And I think, to be honest, I think you see it in everyday life, don't you? Going back to that strength. I think if a woman accounts something and she shows some emotion they’re often historically they've tended not to be believed, which is shocking, and it's still shocking to me now. So it's something I wanted to play upon in the novel, and I think women, particularly when it comes to sexual assault and varying things, I think there's very much the sense of sort of, if it makes someone feel uncomfortable, it's often easier either for the woman not to speak up or the person listening to turn the cheek and not really hear, as we see in the novel, which can have quite devastating consequences.

Mindy: Tying that into that in the modern world, of course, the Me Too movement being a huge part of that. I just finished reading a book about gender disparities and data, which I know it doesn't sound interesting. However, it was fascinating because it was talking about how, especially in the medical world, women's pain is discounted often and they’re misdiagnosed or their complaints are ignored because they're a physician isn't believing their account of their own pain. 

Sarah: Oh my gosh, how interesting. I can see that because I think if women express pain, I can imagine often you might cry, or you might be quite open about that. And I think men still have that, sometimes if it's a male position or even perhaps female, you have that idea of Oh, you know, they're being over the top or too sensitive all of those things.

Mindy: Or even going back to using the word hysterical. 

Sarah: Absolutely. And I think that's such a weaponized word and that kind of idea of keep calm, dear or be quiet. It's a very, in a way, clever word of making a woman feel inadequate for showing what is quite a normal emotion. And I don't think it's healthy for men either. I think being told that as a man, you can't express those feelings, probably because it makes you seem more feminine, is a terrible way to approach the world. 

Mindy: Really, it is. I'm gonna see if I can pull up the name of that book because it was interesting. Another thing that they talked about in the book that was pretty fascinating. It's called Invisible Women: Data Bias in a World Designed for Men. It is fascinating. I will. I'll send you a link. I'll send a link to your publicist. They even talk about how, in clinical trials they only use men in medical clinical trials. At least they used to because they couldn't account for a woman's menstrual cycle and how it might affect the medication. 

Sarah: Oh, my gosh. 

Mindy: I know. We're back to -  It's a full moon. Don't cross the river at night. 

Sarah: Yeah. 

Mindy: Even in medical trials for FDA approval, they would only use male subjects as that was part of the control that they only use males. As time has progressed, they've discovered that certain medications interact differently with the female body, and I forget the name. But there was a specific medication for blood pressure and blood pressure problems, and it's supposed to bring your blood pressure down, but in women, it actually brings it up. And they didn't know this. They got FDA approval without ever trying it on women and people died. 

Sarah: Oh, my gosh, that's horrific, isn't it? Mm, Yeah, it's again. It's that sort of invisible woman. As you say. Isn't it terrible?

Mindy: I work in a high school. I substitute very often. Most of the time, these days. Anyway, you know most of the young women today. They feel like sexism has been either mostly taken care of or they feel it, or they see it mostly in representation, as far as like, an expectation for them to look or outward presence in a certain way. And they're aware of that. But some of the more heinous and insidious things... I'll tell them things like that. Like, for example, for the longest time crash test dummies were only made in a male form. 

Sarah: Gosh, I didn't know that, actually. Yeah. 

Mindy: Yeah. So hips and breasts weren't accounted for. And if you look at the data for women's deaths in a car crash, it's much, much higher than men's because the seats and the seat belts are made for a male body. 

I will send along the link for you, but bringing it back to The Sanatorium and last thing I know, I've got to let you go. Why don't you tell us where listeners can find you online and where they can find The Sanatorium?

Sarah: I think you can pretty much find it in all formats everywhere now, so online. Or be in your local bookstore, independent bookstore and, yeah, I'm online. I'm on Instagram at SarahPearseAuthor. I'm on Twitter at SarahVPearse, and then you can find me on Facebook. Just I think it's Sarah Pearse, Author again. I also have a website at www dot sarah pearse dot co dot UK 

Mindy:

Ashley Audrain On The Complexity of Motherhood & Writing Advice She Loathes

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Mindy: We're here with Ashley Audrain whose first novel, The Push, released earlier this month. It is up my alley because it covers something that I think a lot of people don't like to talk about. And that is the possibility of a truly bad child. So why don't you tell us a little bit about the book? 

Ashley: Sure. Thank you for having me, Mindy. The Push is about a woman named Blythe Connor, and she comes from a history of women who have struggled greatly with motherhood, her own mother and her grandmother in particular. And she's determined that she's going to break the cycle, that she's going to be the warm, present engaged mother that she herself never had. And so she and her husband have a baby named Violet. And it is not long until she starts to realize that there's something wrong with Violet. She is a very aloof child. She's distant and not attached, and she's quite an angry little girl. And she soon starts to demonstrate some malicious behavior towards other Children. And the problem, of course, is that her husband cannot see in their daughter what she sees. He thinks this is very much a result of Blythe’s maternal anxiety, and you know the fear that she's carried about motherhood for so long and they, you know, sort of try to move on and have another baby. And in that new baby named Sam, Blythe finds that maternal connection she had always hoped for until something goes terribly wrong in the family and they are forced to really take a look at who their daughter is and who Blythe herself is and what has happened. And the family unravels from there. 

Mindy: So much going on there. I love that you made the decision To make the bad child a female. 

Ashley: Yeah, that's interesting. No one has said that to me yet. Blythe is raising a daughter who she hopes is going to be the better, kind of, reflection of the women that she comes from. It was important to me to sort of capture these four generations of women. So we go back to the grandmother, the mother Blythe herself, and now this fourth generation in Violet. And I really wanted to explore that idea of, you know, this chain of motherhood that we come from, what we as women, sort of the women that recreate, and the females that we create in the children we have. What we can't help but pass along to them. What we try to pass along to them. Explore that kind of balance between what is innate in us, totally innate in us as women. And what is, you know, the learned behavior that we have as women when it comes to, especially when it comes to kind of our maternal behaviors. 

Mindy: It's such a great question and so interesting to me personally. As a joke, but also very true - my mother is extraordinarily kind and sweet. Never says a bad thing about anyone. For an example. Their house was broken into maybe two years ago, and my mom came home, discovered it and didn't call the cops because she and I quote, “did not want anyone to get into trouble.” That's my mother. 

Ashley: Aw, that's so sweet. 

Mindy: Oh, yeah, just well, It's okay, I'll clean it up. That is the hereditary line, and it's very true, and I was fortunate enough to know my great grandmother, that really kind of conservative, “I don't want to cause a problem or get in your way or be too loud. I'll just clean up this mess” for a woman, really came down very strongly through all three generations. And then I showed up. And I can tell you that my mother... I'm 42 and my mother repeatedly has told me she just keeps wishing that someday I'll be nicer and I'm like mom, it's I'm 42.

Ashley: So funny. And also that expectation and pressure to be nice as women. I mean, we get it all the time. 

Mindy: Yeah, we certainly do. Another point I want to bring up your using a female child to be an aggressor. I really like it. I really like it because when we see, when we notice-in some circles, obviously it is changing and thank goodness - but when we see aggressive behavior, they're not even necessarily aggressive. Sometimes just strong qualities of resistance, defiance, things like this in a female child. It gets translated and magnified in our minds simply because it's a female enacting it. We are immediately like No, no, no, no, You can't act that way. It doesn't simply boil down to the “boys will be boys” like It is a true cultural thing that when we see a female speaking up speaking out, there's automatically a problem. She doesn't have to be mean or aggressive. She's perceived that way. So does that come into the book at all? Or are you focusing more on that maternal line because I think it's just fascinating with the- as you were saying - the chain of motherhood because it is strong and it is real. 

Ashley: It really is. And yeah, it's interesting. There are moments Violet, the young girl has aggressions towards other Children and those Children that she treats that way are boys. But it's this example of this girl you know, doing these things to these boys. And there are some conversations that I capture in the book where her husband, Fox, speaks of their daughter and sort of, you know, the ways that we tend to learn how to speak about little girls. You know what the Mother in Law's sort of does the same thing, and Blythe sees her daughter differently, but she doesn't conform as much to that sort of, You know,  - there's nothing wrong with her. She's just this sweet little girl like other people in the book do. 

And there's also, you know, some questions with her or conversations with, her preschool teacher and whatnot about the kind of child she is. I'm or was sort of focused on that idea of motherhood and sort of what we passed down as women and, you know, it's interesting. I think you know the relationship between a mother and daughter is just such an interesting one to me because I obviously, because I am a woman but even even more interesting than sort of the relationship between a mother and son. It is, I think, the most complex, often the most emotional relationship that we can have in our lives. And, you know, we look at our mothers, and I think you just spoke perfectly to this. But, you know, we see things in our own mothers sometimes that we don't see in ourselves, or we do see in ourselves whether we like to or not. But I think we're always quite conscious of it, like we're all quite, I think conscious of Are we being like our mother right now? And it's almost sort of become an insult, you know, for someone to say, Oh, you're being just like your mom. That's so interesting to me that we speak that way about how we think of our mothers. 

And the other thing about that I kinda wanted to explore here, and that's really interesting to me is, I think, as daughters, you know, we think we really know our mothers so well, like we really feel like we completely understand them. We are so close to them, you know, we kind of know them inside out. Many of us and speaking, you know, broadly, we didn't even know who our mothers were as women before they had Children. We do understand and see our mothers through such a narrow lens when you really think about it. And so I like that idea of, you know, exploring this part of your mother that you can't quite understand and the parts of her identity that you can't quite understand because you weren't there for them. You didn't witness them. You don't know them. All you get is that woman as mother. I wanted to explore that by looking at kind of the back stories of, like mother and her grandmother as well. 

Mindy: I think it's so true we do view our mothers Only through that very narrow scope of motherhood, and we don't think of them as actually women, I think very often. And I think that's particularly damaging because I mean, it is something that we say often as teenagers will be like, Oh, you know, you just don't understand me? Um, of course they do. Of course they do, because they were teenagers once too. And of course, that's true across the gender spectrum. But I think particularly for girls and especially like my generation. And I think probably yours as Well, our mothers are probably more in that mold of - well, at least where I'm from because I live rurally - a little more in that mold of what a woman was supposed to be in an old-fashioned conservative sense. So it's hard to think of them as being… my mom grew up in the sixties, right? She can drink like a fish, you know. And that's something that when I figured this out, like in my twenties, that my mother has a higher alcohol tolerance than I do,  I was just like, Wait, what? 

One of the things, moments in life that I enjoy very, very much are those very brief, very quick moments when you spot someone that you know, like in a crowd or somewhere you don't expect to see them, and your brain has not processed the recognition yet. They're just processing person. And you see this person in this case, my mother, in a different manner simply because you haven't identified them as mom yet. I've had that experience multiple times. You know what those moments are like for anybody, But I had an experience this past fall showing up To a sports event for my nephew, a cross country race. I didn't know that my parents were coming. Because of COVID, the attendance was, you know, limited and I hadn't spoken to them. And I was walking up to the gate and I'm just looking at people and and there's a woman like waiting, leaning against the fence, just waiting, obviously to meet someone. And you know, she's older, but I just like, glance at this woman. I'm like, Wow, that's a very good looking older woman. She’s really beautiful. 

And I was walking with a person. I had just begun dating somewhat recently at that point, and he was like, Oh, hey, isn't that your mom? And I was like, Oh my God, that is my mom. And it was just this moment. It was like my mom is very, very pretty.  And I just had I love that experience of seeing her just as a person. 

Ashley: Oh, I love it. That's such a good example. That is a really good example. Yeah, I know exactly what you mean. And I've had that moment too. I totally had that kind of moment with my own mother. And there's a, you know, a couple of scenes in the book. I mean, maybe at least one scene that kind of captures this, but that idea of -  I don't know if you experienced this when you were younger, but you would be, you know, a child and you would go to bed. You'd be like, sent for bedtime and then your parents would have friends over like there would be something social happening in their life. And I can totally remember that feeling of, you know, being in bed and kind of falling, trying to fall asleep and knowing that my parents were like having this sort of experience downstairs that was social with other adults. And their voices changing and their conversation style changing and that being like... feeling very shocking and feeling very intriguing. It's uncomfortable, I think, as a child sometimes because you feel like that's a different person, downstairs in the kitchen. It's so interesting to me, and I'm sort of a little bit conscious of that now. And I, you know, my oldest kid is five, so you know he's not quite there yet. But I still do kind of catch those moments where I sort of see him kind of standing off to the side, sort of watching me in conversation with somebody, you know, completely out of my mom identity, but in a different identity. And it is such an interesting thing.

Mindy: Your example about adults gathering and the Children being there is very precious, very accurate. I know having those experiences as a child. If I needed something suddenly, like if I wanted to drink or if I wanted to go downstairs and ask if I could have you know, another cookie or whatever, I would hesitate in a way that I never would have if it was just my mom downstairs, because she's not just my mom now, like I'm going down there. I'm intruding on this new person, this different person. 

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Ashley: I remember that kind of feeling of almost embarrassment. It's funny how visceral that feeling that memory is for both of us. It reminds me of there was this book, It was called Women in Clothes. And I think it came out maybe 2012 or sometime around there, because I remember I had just started working at Penguin when it came out, and it was more of like, an anthology on, like a collection of essays about women writing all kinds of perspectives and stories on articles about their relationship with clothing. And there was one article that really stuck out to me, and I should go back and read it now I haven't read in a long time, but it was a woman talking about how she wanted to go back and look at pictures of what her mother wore before she became a mother. How it gave her a completely different perspective on how she considered her mother at that time. And I thought, That's so interesting because, you know, it may seem like a frivolous thing to be, you know, thinking or talking about clothing. But I mean, clothing is such a huge part of our identity and how we express ourselves. That's also quite interesting, too. Like I think you know, there are all these little sort of artifacts of the way that we kind of see our mother or can understand her. 

Mindy: It's very true. And my mother, apparently, this is a story that gets tossed around in the, uh, the family because it is highly amusing, but she had gone to college. Again, we live very rurally. and she went to a tech college, like to become a secretary. She went to Columbus to go like a two year college and right around the time she had left home, apparently there was a woman roughly her age and looks very similar to her working in pornography. And people would notice this and be like Oh, my God, Like she left home and really just cut loose. And apparently my grandma and my grandfather had to have, like, these really uncomfortable conversations. And my mother was just like, That is not me!

Ashley: A real stroke of bad luck. That is very funny. Oh, dear.

Mindy: Also like when my mom told me that story, of course I was older. I was all, Oh my gosh, Ha ha ha. But then I was like, Oh, wait, you do have sex, though. 

Ashley: Exactly. That sudden realization

Mindy: Yeah, it was funny. And then shit got real.

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Mindy: So you mentioned working in publishing. I know that you were in the industry for a while before you went to the other side of the desk as an author. So why don't you talk about that and about that transition? 

Ashley: Sure. Yeah. So I started my career in PR like working for PR agencies, doing more like consumer marketing. I really liked that. But I did sort of feel this kind of missing connection to, you know, what my passion was, and that was writing and books and reading. And I was very fortunate to have the opportunity To move over to Penguin Canada to work as their publicity director because it could be hard to get a job in publishing. And so I was lucky to get that job. And I really felt like a kid in a candy store when I went into the office every day because, you know, I love doing, you know, marketing and communications and publicity, and that was still my role. But I was surrounded by some of the best authors in the world and books every day. And that's, you know, obviously what we all kind of hope for. 

I had been writing a lot leading up to that, weekends and nights. And writing had always been such a big part of my life, and it was, you know, what I had hoped to do. But of course, you know, you have to have a job that pays your bills every day. I did not write much when I worked at Penguin. I kind of just let writing sort of go to the side, and I think it's because when I was in that job, well, first of all, it is very humbling to work in publishing, especially at, you know, one of the best publishers in the world.

But more so, you know, I was doing so much reading at that time, and when you work in publishing, you have to read everything. You have to read the books you're putting out, you know, as a publisher, you're reading competition, you're reading the best sellers, and I read wider than I ever had before, like far more commercial than I had before and also far more literary than I had before. Looking back now, I did not realize this at the time, but looking back Now I can see that that was its own very powerful education in writing, to be reading so voraciously and so widely. 

I really loved working at Penguin, but I left in 2015 To go on maternity leave with my son. We're very lucky to have a year maternity leave here in Canada. I guess around like the six month mark or so I started to write again. I just felt this really compelling urge to write about motherhood. And the story was, it really felt urgent to me and I felt that was what I wanted to do with, you know, the precious few hours I had every week. And so it kind of happened from there and I didn't go back to my job, you know, for a couple of reasons. But I really wanted To pursue writing. That sort of was, you know, the end of my time at Penguin as a publicist, but I'm there now as an author, so it kind of comes full circle for sure. So that was sort of how the writing journey for the novel began. 

Mindy: I know as an author - I never worked in publishing, previous to being an author. But I've been publishing now since 2013. I work just freelance editing for aspiring writers. I've had a lot of luck with that, especially during quarantine. So many people who had said, Yeah, I want to write a novel just did it, which is wonderful. I have a lot of editorial work come in and it's been such an experience having words just be my entire day and life, where I'm reading other people's words, giving them advice on how to make things better. I'm looking at writing from a completely critical standpoint, like not getting lost in the story or anything of that type, completely deconstructing everything that I'm reading, then moving into creating something of my own and having to turn the critical parts off so that I can just let some flow happen.

Ashley: It’s a completely different mindset.

Mindy: That's right, it’s a completely different interaction with words. Maybe in the evening I’m reading, right? And that kind of stopped. I have to tell you.

Ashley: I hear you. Reading during the pandemic, you know, in this pandemic life that we're still in, I have gone through different relationships with reading as well, times when I just couldn't do it and then times when I needed it. Do you find that your editing work, like your manuscript help for other people, is helping your writing as well? 

Mindy: For sure. It's also humbled me incredibly, because I was always very confident in myself and self-assured and verging on being egotistic, because I was in my early twenties. But I really believed at that time in my life that writing was a talent, that it was a gift. That you had it or you didn't. And I wrote and wrote and wrote. I think I had finished at that point, like three novels and, of course, was convinced that they were all Pulitzer worthy. 

Then I came home and was not in college anymore. Was married, having no, absolutely zero success with my writing, just rejection after rejection after rejection, just feeling like this undiscovered genius. And it's so interesting to me. Because then, of course, through 10 years of further life experience of improving and improving and learning and accepting criticism, I actually became a good writer. I went back and looked at some of the stuff that I had written early and it was so bad. Like, That's not like mock humility. It’s terrible. And so I bring that to my editing. I mean, don't get me wrong. There are times when I'm editing and I'm just like, Really? This is super basic. You should be able to do this. And then I'm like, But could you, Mindy? Could you?

Ashley: Exactly. Because it really is just about the practice of it. Talent for sure. That is a part of it. But so much of it is the hours, the hours that you spend doing it. Yeah, for sure. I totally get that. 

Mindy: Before you left Penguin, when you were so immersed in words and publishing and in that every day truly grind of having a relationship with words of every minute of the day, Were you still attempting to write at that time or had you set that aside? 

Ashley: I had really set it aside, and it wasn't so much a conscious choice to do that. It just sort of was the way things happened. Looking back, I think I sort of knew that I had other things to learn, and I think That's why I was so compelled to read so much. I think that's kind of where that came from. Yeah, so I really had kind of put that aside. I mean, I always had kept that dream. I always kind of felt that dream that want to do it. To, you know, to write, but also to get published and that pursuit of it. 

I remember before I started working at Penguin, you know, I always had a writing class that I was in. I didn't have any kids. And so I had, you know, all Saturday and all Sunday at that time in my life, kind of to myself until I would sit for eight hours and write. And I was kind of working on, you know, pieces here and there and, you know, testing out ideas for a book and kind of doing assignments for these writing classes that I was in. I loved it. I just loved it so much. And that  had really convinced me just of the joy that writing brought to me and how, like, connected I felt to it. It is kind of strange that it sort of fell away when I was, you know, working for those couple years in publishing. But again, kind of in hindsight, I could see that as sort of... It was almost like the other part of my brain was kind of turned on at that time, Um, kind of just absorbing, just learning through seeing how it worked and also just reading, you know, so much more widely. 

It didn't surprise me at all when that urge, that kind of rush, to need to write Again came back to me as soon as I left that job. That whole time, the ideas were brewing. Like an urge is the best way to describe it, like just a really creative urge with something to say. It's interesting you hear writers say write this, you know, the story that only you could tell. You have to write what’s kind of burning in you at that moment. 

Mindy: A cliche, a piece of writing advice that I hear often that I dislike - even though I think if you have the opportunity, you should take it - but so often I hear writers saying “write every day.” And I think that is just--

Ashley: I hate that, too. Mindy, I'm so glad you said that because that is also my most loathed piece of writing advice is “write every day.” Because I mean of course, if you are in a certain writing routine, of course you're writing every day. I never wrote every day and I still don't. And I never wrote every day then for several reasons and one was because I was a new mom. And that is an impossibility as a new mother. Write Every day? I mean, you are not in the head space to sit down on the computer every day of your life. There's no time. You're exhausted. Personally, I was trying to find just a couple moments in the week that I could write. That was all I could manage. 

But I think the other thing is that and I know everyone is so different. But for me, I never wrote every day because I needed time to think. And I needed time to kind of let things percolate. And I definitely thought about the book every day. That I could do. Like I had the energy to think about it. But I didn't always have the energy to sit down and work on it, you know, because I had a newborn. Even that whole first year of his life, you know, I take him for walks and pushing the stroller and going to the swings and nursing at night. And I would constantly take notes, and I would constantly think about it. It wasn't always that I could sit down and you know, up my word count. I don't agree with that advice for everybody. I know people who will say That's the only way I got the book done was to write every day, and you know, that is great, because that works for them. But it's not gonna work for everybody. 

Mindy: No. And I think that it raises a bar of exclusivity as well, because there are people that simply cannot write every day. Like you were saying early motherhood, but also people that are working two jobs, people that are single parents, people that are just freaking exhausted at the end of the day. You can't write every day. I could. Technically. I don't want to.

Ashley: I just don't want to. It's not the day. 

Mindy: I find so many aspiring writers hearing that advice and just hanging it up because they're like, Well, I can't do that.

Ashley: It feels quite daunting, doesn't it?

Mindy: Yeah, I agree. And I think I see a lot of people having the reaction of, Well, I must not be a writer then. It's like, No, dude, you can not write for six months. You cannot write for six years and then be like, Okay, I'm gonna do it again. That's fine.

Ashley: I totally agree. I totally agree. And I do remember kind of going through a point where I almost like, in those early days, and I was just starting to write where, you know, because that advice is so prevalent. I remember thinking like, I have no chance. Like I have a job.I can't make it the biggest priority in my life. 

Mindy: I cringe when I hear it every time I'll contradict people. If I'm on like a panel or something.

Ashley: I should say. I mean, it took me three years to write this book, so I guess that's why I guess it depends.

Mindy: It took me 10 years to get published, so you know everything with a grain of salt. So last thing, why don't you let people know where they can find you online and where they can find your book The Push?

Ashley: Sure, thank you. Well, The Push is out now so you can find it basically anywhere that you prefer, anywhere you like to buy books should be available. And you can find me online on Twitter at @audrain And I'm on Instagram @AshleyAuDrain And I have a website, Ashley Audrain dot com, that I'm updating with event news and that sort of thing. So, yeah, I love to hear from readers, and that's been, that's been a real joy in this process, is just, you know, finally having this book out and just hearing back from people about what they think of the book and what's resonating, and it's been really great. 

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Indie Author Len Joy On Publishing Later In Life

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Mindy: We're here with Len Joy, author of Everybody Dies Famous. Len came to ,if not writing, definitely publishing in his sixties and I have had quite a few guests who entered into this journey later on in life and they always seem to get a really good response. I think that aspiring writers like to hear that you don't have to have made it before you're Thirty. I personally wasn't published till I was in my mid-30s so I feel that pressure often, in my twenties, of you know maybe not having accomplished things or hit any Pinnacle that I was aiming for yet. When you're in your twenties it feels like you need to be doing something now. So I’d really just like  to talk about making that choice and making that move towards publishing later in life but first let's talk about writing. Have you always been a writer or did you come to the actual Act of writing later as well? 

Len: I think when I was really young it’s hard to remember sometimes that far back. I did have these aspirations. I liked the idea of being a writer when I went off to college in the 60s and became an English major, that was a path, I thought, to world fame as a writer. And I went to the University of Rochester and during the first year actually I took this course on English literature, and the Professor shredded my paper. I was only 18, not a lot of confidence. And he sort of totally destroyed it at that point. Switched to economics and then went into business, and I still had that notion, I was just convinced I didn't have the talent to be a writer. You do a lot of writing in business, but it’s always... I had a small business, manufacturing company. I was always writing to the banks asking for money describing business and stuff but once I started having children and liked to write about the kids and sort of poke fun at them and my wife and myself. And I got a lot of great feedback on my holiday letter, which was easy when the kids were young and couldn't read it and I continued that tradition and realized that was something I really enjoyed doing. 

I still continued in my business for 20 years and around 2003 when I got a mail flyer from the University of Chicago Graham School offering creative writing course, and do I want to take that? I was winding down the business. I had businesses in Phoenix and I’m located in Chicago and I did it with my brother in law. I would commute back and forth for basically every 10 days I go to Phoenix and then come back and so I did a lot of reading and sort of writing during those long flights. But it always gives us an excuse when I couldn't take any other courses because my schedule is so irregular but once that stopped basically on a whim I decided I would try this course and I really enjoyed it and I got good feedback. It was just the basics of writing you know, write 300 words of fiction. The instructor was encouraging but not, “don’t quite your day job” kind of encouraging. 

I enjoyed writing. I liked telling stories. I moved on and took like a whole sequence of courses from the University and then I also, each year I would go to the Iowa Writers Festival which is a great program. They give you so many different opportunities. It’s like summer camp for adults. you get a week away from everything else and just sort of immersed in whatever course you're taking it and going to book readings and stuff like. 

So that was probably in my 50s. And I didn’t consider myself a novelist. Some people I think have a novel that they want to write and I didn't have that. I had, I have stories and experience running a Manufacturing Company a small engine remanufacturing business with 300 employees. Just a lot of material for writing. It wasn’t a great business but it was a great experience. I think that’s one of the disadvantages of writing when you’re older, is you have less time to make your mark but one of the advantages is in addition to having more financial stability is you have all this experience.

Mindy: And it’s that experience that is interesting and I want to come back to that because you mentioned having a professor, a teacher, Mentor, kind of really dissuade you from something that you were interested in and turned you away from something that you wanted. You said that you felt as if you're being told you didn't have the talent to write. I think it's very interesting to take that statement and set it beside what you just said about having experience. Because personally and my viewpoint on this has changed -  I used to really Bank on that word talent and believe that it was a latent thing that we were given at Birth or not. As I have become older and looked at some of the writing I produced in my twenties, I can definitively tell you that is not true. 

I thought I was really good and I'm not saying that you weren't at 18, I'm simply saying that I know the writing that I was producing in my Twenties that was being rejected again and again and again - as I have told my listeners before I was querying for 10 years I was rejected for 10 years and I earned all of those rejections because my writing was not ready yet. As a 42 year old I can look back at that and identify a seed, be it creativity or whatever you want to call it. I'm not going to call it Talent. That wasn't there yet. I learned from my criticism. It sounds like you had a rough brush. I never had anyone tell me - you're not going to make it cuz you don't have what it takes. I had people say - you need to work if you want this. Which is a true statement and a helpful statement. Simply saying you don't have it -  is not helpful. 

With this in mind I want you to think about - because I know I have many Educators too, out there that listen to my podcast. Putting those two statements beside each other -  what do you find to be like the takeaway there -  talent versus work and travail?

Len: I have this sort of dual-career of writing and and competing in triathlons, both of which I went into in my 50s. My position, my feeling is that most people have a decent amount of talent if you want to call it that. Or ability, let’s say ability to say, write, or compete athletically. And then there’s a few, the rare exception in writing, where the person doesn't need any training at all, they’re just naturally brilliant. But that's such a small percentage, I don’t think it even applies. 

Even with your ability you need to work at it, whether it’s a sport or writing. You need training. I personally know I benefited from great instructors who opened my eyes to how much there is involved in the profession of writing. It's not just sitting down and writing words. A lot of things storytelling, formation of the stories, and just mundane things like dialogue, punctuation. There’s a lot to learn and I found that you have to put in the time. There’s no shortcut to that. 

I tell that story more as a cautionary tale, for me like when people are in workshops to remember that when you know, like a lot of the workshops now you get - 18 year olds, and 20 year olds and 40 and and 50 and 60 year olds. As we get older sometimes you get out in the real world and you get rejected in a lot of ways. Customers, stuff like that. And it can maybe coursen you or harden you a little but, I always remember that that 18 year old boy was so sensitive. It wasn’t that the professor was - it was the same experience you probably had. The paper wasn’t very good. I wasn’t used to writing papers. I just took it to heart. I made a good choice at that time to go into business, which I also enjoyed. He didn’t extinguish the flame. I postponed that adventure. 

Mindy: Postponement is a good word to use here. It's a long journey no matter how you use your mile markers in publishing and writing - the line always extends further into the distance. There's always something else you're going to want, I'll put it that way. I remember in my -  let's call it naivete -  in my twenties thinking, “you know if I could just get a book published then I'll be happy.” I think I have 12 books published now.

Len: Then you’re really happy.

Mindy: I’m not, though. You want something else. You always want something more. Now I’m like, I’ve done well, I’ve made a living as a writer. I’m not a New York Times bestselling author though. If I could just get that... right? I mean, the rung is always moving higher and that is a good thing because it pushes us to continue to improve.

Let's talk about your book and moving forward through these years of writing, knowing that you wanted to write, having that creative flame still burning inside - walk us through that process and how you arrived where you are now with a small press title. 

Len: Going back to when I was taking those courses, I started taking novel writing courses and they had a sequence at the University of Chicago. And I didn’t realize when I signed that most people who were taking that course already had written what they think of as their novel and they were just trying to figure out how to make it better. I had no novel. I had just been taking short stories and writing really, flash fiction and things. When I took that course we were going to critique a chapter each week. It was a great incentive to apply myself. I took a short story I had about a guy who had pitched… he’s driving down the road and heading towards a wedding. I evolved at - I would write a chapter each week. Ultimately four or 5 years later it became my novel American Pastime.  

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It took a long time to get it published because I was trying, in the original format it had grown to like a fifty year saga, from the fifties up to the early 2000s. I got some feedback as I was trying to get it published that as a debut author, it’s too long, too involved, you need to cut it back. You know those are tough things to hear. But I was able to, and I’m flexible enough, I cut the novel in half, cut out many of my beloved characters and ended it right after the Vietnam War. 

It’s a family Saga about the Stonemason family, with Dancer Stonemason who pitched a perfect game in minor leagues and then his life unravels. He doesn't make it to the majors and it's sort of America growing up in the 50s and 60s through the war. So I ended it there and managed to get a small publisher and then I got great reviews and some sales success. It's really hard to sell from those independent platforms. And I wrote another novel. It’s different from that, Better Days, but I came back to - I had all this material that I used. I decided I would continue the story. 

Even though it's a stand-alone novel, I wrote Everybody Dies Famous using the same characters that survived, like 30 years later. The whole novel takes place in a single day. In some ways it’s a lot easier in some ways more challenging. But, all the activity is focused and it gives you a good framework to write the story.

Mindy: You made that jump to becoming a published author. You're with a small press. You mentioned earlier, you know, this is an experience you had before -  it is difficult to move quantities when you're with a small press simply because there's so much noise out there in the world. Making yourself visible is difficult. I’m published with one of the Big Five and I can tell you it's still difficult to get attention and get eyes on your book and put yourself in front of people simply because there's just so much noise. So much noise all the time, everyone saying -  I wrote a book! it's very hard to make yourself stand out. What is your experience been then with the Indy press world and are you looking to replicate that? Are you going to stay in the Indy world, or are you looking to… what's in your future?

Len: I was fortunate I was published by a group called Hark! New Era publishing. A husband and wife team. I was their first book published, and then I was their last book published. They had children and careers and were trying to make this work and couldn't keep it going but they were really good editors. Then, the next book I moved on to another small press, and I wasn't satisfied really, with the marketing attention and the arrangements. So I actually bought the book back from them and went through Kindle Direct publishing for that experience and… Which was good. I’m glad I did that because It gave me a chance to experiment with trying to do social media ads. It’s just something I’m not good at and would like help with. 

I'm 69 years old. I can’t wait years for the agents to see the Wonder of my Work. I just finished my fourth novel. I would like to move up the food chain to a big press, and you need an agent to do that. But I can feel for agents because they get what sounds like hundreds of submissions a week. They just have to go through quickly and I always want to take my shot at it. 

But, for Everyone Dies Famous was published by BQB Publishing which is a hybrid publisher. I’m just very grateful for that. When I started writing I don't think that was even an option. BQB does a quality job. They publish good books. They provide a partnership. They’re doing what you’d have to do as a self-publisher, but for most of us they are doing a much better job at that. And they share the royalties. I’d love to make a living at it, but I’ve made a living and what I'd Really like to get is readers.

Mindy: You bring up an interesting point and you're not the first person I’ve heard say this. I've had multiple authors who are older say you know, my remaining window is only so big.

Len: We plan to live forever but we may not.

Mindy: We might not. I mean it's a pretty good bet. So it is something to be considered. It may not be the most happy thought. But it is in fact, reality. And also, you were saying that you took the step of buying your rights back and self publishing through Kindle Direct. Trying to figure out the confusing algorithm maze that is Kindle, Amazon advertising, Facebook advertising, any of it. It is not easy. I have friends in the Indie publishing industry that's 50% of their job, is just figuring out how to crack those algorithms, how to put together an ad that works and all of those things. And of course it’s all very tech-heavy which, I imagine  - making a generalization - I imagine may also be more intimidating, for someone that hasn’t grown up and been around computers and really digging into them their entire lives.

Len: Right.

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Mindy: I am very interested to talk to you about another aspect of your life - that being athleticism. I am also an athlete, was an athlete in High School, lost that in my twenties and in the beginning of my 30s because I was too busy. Returned to it then end of 30s and now into my forties. And you are a competitive triathlete.

Len: You know, I was a jock growing up. I went to college thinking I could play football. I love sports. After college there’s no way to have competition. I started hearing about these triathlons, and thought about it for like ten years. I’m average at running, biking and swimming. Not elite by any stretch. But put them all together and maybe I can compete. You know, write a page a day and I'll have a novel in a year. 

But it got me, you know, I took a couple of YMCA classes and then I found a trainer and you discover A Whole New World. It’s a lot. I thought I could swim. This morning my training was ahead an hour and a half bike ride on the trainer in the basement now that we're all sequestered. And I went to the Y for a swim lesson. It’s like, it's great. I’m continuing to learn stuff. I’m not elite, really, but because of my age group, I’m able to compete on Team USA because there's just fewer and fewer of us still competing.

Mindy: And you completed an IronMan, correct?

Len: That was a great experience. I don't think I’ll repeat it because it just takes so much time and training to do it. I did an IronMan in Idaho, Coeur d'Alene with a group that I still  train with and some people I know have gone on to complete ten or eleven IronMans. I just don’t. I just don’t have the time. A bike training ride is like six hours.

Mindy: I'm support staff for an IronMan here locally. I run around, stabbing trash and picking it up and grabbing people’s water bottles and taking their empty bottles, and sometimes they're taking their full piss bottles. I don’t compete because I would drown. I would be dead. So that's not in the cards for me and never will be, but I do support because it’s amazing. It’s  a stunning amount of athleticism and determination and just mind over matter involved in that and I love that you as an individual are participating in both exercising the mind and the body. Constantly moving forward and learning. That’s what I Aspire to. In 20 years I want to be able to say the same thing 

Len: I always find like those activities are really complementary in the sense that, I ran the Boston Marathon. I got the chance to do that. When you run a marathon, you don’t run 26 miles at once. It’s a step at a time.you train for it. Just like a novel. Just do a little bit each day. Training on the days you don’t want to train. Same with writing. You’ve got to sit down and do something everyday. They support each other. It’d be easy, especially now, with the world the way it is, not to get out of bed in the morning.

Mindy: Oh yeah. If you don’t give me a  reason to get out of bed, I'll stay there. Last thing, if you could let people know where they can find you online, that would be great.

Len: My website, www.lenjoybooks.com. Facebook, search for Len Joy. The same with Twitter. I have a newsletter and I would welcome more subscribers.

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