Chelsea Bobulski on Implementing Indie Strategies in Traditional Publishing

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Mindy: We're here with Chelsea Bobulski who is the author of the All I Want for Christmas series, which is upcoming for this holiday season. And one of the reasons I wanted to have Chelsea on is because Chelsea has moved from the very traditional mainline experience of publishing, where you have a book coming out every year and there's a lot of downtime, to a very new experience where she is writing and releasing this christmas holiday themed romance series for books every three weeks from the end of October leading up to the holiday. So that's a really interesting experience and very different from other guests that we've had on. So Chelsea is here to tell us a little bit about that experience. 

Chelsea: Yes, I'm very excited to talk about it because it has been a totally different experience from what I've done before, but it's been very exciting. 

Mindy: Absolutely. I can't even imagine. My episode that came out on October fourth was actually with my own editor, Ben Rosenthal. And one of the things I asked him to talk about is why does it take so long in traditional publishing for a book to go from a contract to a physical object that you can buy on the shelf? Because a lot of people ask me about that. You have had an experience where it doesn't necessarily have to, but you're taking all of that work and you're condensing it down into a very tight timeline. 

Chelsea: Yes. Absolutely, yeah, I was very blessed getting a book deal with Wise Wolf Books, they're a new imprint, but with an already established company, Wolfpack Publishing has been around for quite some time and has been very successful with this model. And basically what they do is they act like a traditional publishing company in terms of how they support the author. But they take a lot of the things that indie authors have been doing so successfully in order to push out books quickly, knowing that readers who fall in love with the series want to be able to binge the series. 

And so they've taken a lot of those tactics and implemented them into a more traditional publishing sphere and their whole goal is to be able to quickly publish these books in a series without sacrificing quality, just as indie authors have been doing for quite some time. So it's a little bit of an experiment in a way in the sense that at least for me, because I've never done it this way, as I said Wise Wolf books as part of a larger publishing umbrella that has been doing it for a while and doing it very successfully. 

But for me this is a whole new experience because as you said, I've done two books traditionally The Wood and Remember Me, we're both with Fiewel and Friends, Macmillan. And so this is a whole new experience to basically write three books in a year because the first book which is entitled All I Want for Christmas is The Girl Next Door, I had completed. And we were sending out two different editors and then we actually ended up getting two offers of publication for that book. And we went with Wise Wolf because I was just so excited by the prospect of being able to put out the books quickly. And so that was in August 2020 that we got the book deal and said that between August 2020 and now, basically I've written the other three books over the course of a year. And so it's been a very fast process. But it's also just been very exciting and I can't wait to get the books out into readers’ hands. 

Mindy: I can't imagine the writing pace. I can write a book very quickly. And if I were only relying on traditional publishing and one book a year as my income, probably wouldn't be survivable. As you know, I've got my fingers in all kinds of different things. I do co-authoring and I do a lot of editorial work on the side. I have a blog and the podcast. And all of these things bring in money so that I'm generally working all of the time. But people ask me often, you know, what do you do all day? And most of the time the answer is I answer emails. That's a lot of what I do all day. There's not a ton of actual writing time. Actually cranking out for books that quickly, I can't imagine how much your actual writing schedule changed. 

Chelsea: It actually changed quite a bit also because I am a parent of two young children. And so that also factors into how much writing time that I have. My mother in law was kind enough to be able to come and help. Typically she'd come for three days a week. And so for those three days I would just focus on writing and of course as we've gotten closer to the release dates, I've had to kind of balance the writing with some more marketing things and emails as you were saying. But for the most part I just wrote for as long as I could as much as I could each of those days. I just think it was by the grace of God that any of it got done though. 

Especially because there were six weeks total spread out throughout the year where she couldn't come at all due to Covid related issues. My husband had Covid in November. We all came through fine. There's another time where we had been exposed to it and didn't get it, but we didn't want her to come up, just in case. And then she got sick. And so that has definitely made it more difficult because that mixed in with maybe other life things going on where maybe she couldn't come visit for that week. So even though it was a year of writing, it was actually three days a week and it wasn't always consistently happening. And so, like I said, it was not by my power that these books got done, that's for sure. 

Mindy: I understand. People that are outside of the experience have a concept of a writer, really just like sitting down and grinding things out and taking huge chunks of time. And I know that my own experience is that if I've got 15 minutes here or I have to go to the doctor's office, I'm going to take my laptop with me and use it in the waiting room. The lady that cuts my hair, I had to go to a new place because my old one got shut down during Covid and just met this really nice older lady who was going to be cutting my hair from now on. And she has a very Old fashioned approach to what she does, she talks to her customers. And I would be sitting there with my laptop and she's like, Oh, I'm sorry, you actually need to work. And I'm like, yes, I have to work, and I'm sorry. It's not that I don't like you or anything like that. I have to work.I can't sit here for 40 minutes while this dye rests on my head. 

And it's so sweet though, because it's like, she's totally cool with me sitting there and working, while she cuts my hair, but also she clucks her tongue at me and she's like, you work too hard, you're working too hard and you do too much. And she always feeds me, it never fails that while I'm there, she's like, here's a piece of pizza. She wants to hen cluck over me. And so when I know that I'm going to get my haircut, I like have to factor that into my eating for the day because I know that she's gonna make me eat. 

Chelsea: That's amazing. Well, and I don't know about you, but for me drafting is when I really can't be interrupted like, I can do revisions and be interrupted because you can kind of come in and out a little bit more like solving a puzzle, you know, and obviously like the email stuff, I can do that and be interrupted. But when I'm drafting I know that I need a solid chunk of time to get into it and then to even to come out of it, especially writing this many books so close together, there were times where I felt like I was almost world hopping. Like this other world was a real place. All four books take place in the same small town, a fictional town that I named, Christmas, Virginia. I was living in this world and I would have to almost shake it off to get back into the real world. It was very disorienting sometimes. 

Mindy: I go pretty deep when I'm drafting mentally, but I've come to a point in my life and now with travel picking back up, I have to find those skills again. I have to be able to work at an airport, I have to be able to work on an airplane. I talked about this on the podcast before I think, but you know, people have certain triggers that they use to help them tell their brain it's time to write. Some people, you know, they have a space that they go to an office or a candle that they burn or a specific type of music. Something that's the trigger that tells their brain they have to work. 

I use a white noise app on my phone, it's perfect because it's portable, I can use it anywhere. I plug in my earphones and I can be on a plane, I can be in an airport and it's a constant noise that never breaks. So with music there will be a slower song or a moment or a rest or pauses in between the songs and that noise comes in from around you and it can penetrate this bubble that you've built inside of the snow globe. But with that white noise, it is a constant noise. There's no sensation and it drowns out everything.

I use it at home. Like even when I am alone at home in my room, I turn on the white noise when I'm writing and that's how my brain knows that it's time to work. And I got to the point where it's like even if I don't have my headphones in, I have my app out and I just have my phone making the noise in public and it also works to keep people away from you. I'll say that as well if you don't have your headphones, if you just turn that on, people don't want to hear it and they move away from you. 

Chelsea: I never even thought of that. That is a good idea. 

Mindy: Now you've got this push since these books are done and there are four of them - of promotion. And because most of the time as a traditionally published author, you're only hitting your audience once. So how are you going to approach promotion with your audience when you're saying, hey, I've got a new book out -- every three weeks? 

Chelsea: I'm trying to learn a bit from, as I said, like, indie authors have been doing this so well for so long. And I think part of the benefit to it is the fact that because you constantly have something new to talk about, right? It's a new book that I think helps promotion in and of itself, because I think that raises excitement a little bit. You enjoyed book one? Well, look, book two is already coming out! And so they don't have to wait, because I think a lot of times that will slow down the momentum of promotion is the fact that people say, oh, I loved this book. When is the second one coming out? And you have to say, oh, a year from now and between then and the next publication date, you hope that they don't forget you. You hope that they enjoyed the book enough that they'll remember. 

But people also get on with their lives and they might totally forget that, Oh yeah, that was supposed to come out a year ago now, I guess I should go pick that up. So, I think that helps a lot. But mostly I'm just trying to focus on what I can do because my time is limited for promotion. So I'm using Instagram a lot just because I'm most comfortable with Instagram, but I also have an amazing Facebook street team that I've been cultivating. They've been helping me get the word out as well. Today I actually posted about the preorder swag. I have a really awesome scene card that was done by an artist named Madison Brown. She does a really fantastic job. And so each book is going to have a little scene card that you'll get as part of your swag in the mail. If I run out of supplies, it'll be digital. Just looking for things like that that I can do to keep people interested and realize that these books are coming out so quickly and leading up to Christmas is very exciting because you know, it just helps people get in that holiday mood. 

Mindy: And we're really looking for that, especially right now.

Chelsea: I really, that was the thing I appreciated most about getting to work on these from through the end of 2020 and into 2021 is I just wanted to lose myself in a Christmas-y word. And I purposely did not include any Covid type things. Like I think it's great that some people are talking about masks and stuff in their books, but I was just like, I just want to live in a world for a bit where this was never a thing. And so that's what I really focused on and one of the things that I really love about the series is that each book is centered on a different couple, like all the couples are friends, so you'll see how the couple from book one is doing in books 2,3 and four, like as you go on. So if you really love certain characters, their story doesn't end with that book, like you'll get to see kind of what they're doing in the next book. So that was really fun to do as well.

Mindy: Something on your side too, and I actually had a conversation yesterday, I was talking with Mary Kole who runs the Good Story company, she also used to be an agent. She was talking with me about how a lot of people are looking for these lighter reads and they are looking for hope and people are kind of pulling away from darker material and they're looking for something to escape the actual world that feels pretty dark and hopeless sometimes lately. You think that that type of approach, having this content - because from what you used to write, your traditional release books were horror. 

Chelsea: Yes, I definitely feel like I have two different sides to me. I have the horror side and I like the christmas romance side and so I'm excited to get to show both now. I mean I think that hope is something that people are always looking for but obviously in the middle of pandemic, it's just even more so. And so each of the books definitely has a lighter feel, they do deal with some deeper themes, even though it's Christmas, there might be a slightly darker element. There may be a character is wrestling with that they have to figure out by the end of the book, but it is all very light and like cheery and Christmas cookies and snowflakes and I just wanted readers to feel like they want to just curl up with these books next to a roaring fireplace with a cup of hot cocoa or a hot cup of tea and just indulge and relax. 

Book one, All I Want for Christmas is The Girl Next Door, it definitely has all of those hope filled messages. Because it's about a boy, Graham Wallace, he has been in love with the girl next door for basically a decade now, ever since she moved in, but she's been dating his best friend, Jeremy for the past two years. And when they first started dating, you know, as is typical in high school, you're kind of like, it's fine, it's only going to last like two weeks and then I'll help her grieve that relationship and then I'll slide in and I'll be the boyfriend, you know. That's kind of how he was thinking about this relationship, but now they've been together for two years and he's just heartbroken and he's been trying his best to deal with it. And then in just a moment of heartbreak and weakness, he looks up in the sky and sees a shooting star and he thinks to himself, “all I want for Christmas is Sarah Clark.” 

And so he wakes up the next day and the whole world has changed that he's the one who's been dating her for two years and not his friend Jeremy. But he starts to realize he and Sarah are maybe not as great together as he thought that they would be as he had imagined in his mind. And not only that, but it's also affected more than just him, It's affected Sarah, it's affected Jeremy, they're living completely different lives now with different goals and it's not necessarily a good thing. And not only that, but Graham is starting to fall for the new girl in town and he's thinking to himself, why am I falling for this new girl? If this wish came true, like I must be destined to be with Sarah, why am I feeling this for the new girl if this wish came true? 

And so it really focuses on the idea of what we think we want isn't what's always right for us. And so it's really his journey into figuring out what that looks like. And so I loved it and I love setting it at Christmas time because I think that Christmas is just the perfect time for hope and renewal and learning really special lessons that you can carry on into the rest of your life, which I'm hoping Graham does.

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Mindy: Now it's interesting to me, like we were saying your first two books being the traditionally published ones that were more horror based. I hear you like so loud because obviously what I write under my real name is very dark, serious stuff and when people meet me in real life, they're like, you're funny. So, I also do write under a pen name and I write with friends of mine and we co author books and they're just ridiculously silly and funny, quite frivolous It’s wonderful for me because that's my outlet, but I do it under a pen name because the branding would be so screwed if I did them under my real name. So I write those under a pen name, so I have an outlet for both. Now there's pros and cons to that, I can't market the stuff under my pen name using my real name and the social media platforms and the mailing list and all the stuff that I've built over like 10 years. Also, I don't know if that audience crosses over. I don't know that my readers that love my books would want to read the things I write underneath my pen name because they are so wildly divergent. How are you approaching that in terms of marketing? Your audience and your readers, they know you as a horror writer and now you're writing like this really fun, really sweet romance series. 

Chelsea: I think that obviously there will be some readers who will not be interested in crossing over only because they are horror readers. They really have no interest in a light romance. And I totally get that, like we all have our books that we love and that we connect with and I don't really have time for another genre because it's just not where our heart is. But I do think that there are readers who will cross over. Even though they're different genres, a lot of the themes are similar, like my horror novels tend to be more atmospheric, creepy and chilling, not so much a jump out and scare you. Although I will say Remember Me, I've had several readers email me and say, you know, I can't take a shower anymore because of the shower thing that happens in there. You know, these are the creepy things that happen. The themes itself, um themes of redemption or themes of romance, things like that I think do cross over in that sense. I think people who enjoyed The Wood and Remember Me would really enjoy this Christmas series, so it's lighter, but it's very similar in different ways. 

Mindy: One of the things that you're talking about is probably your voice and your writing approach in terms of the whole spirit of the voice of the book is probably still similar even though you're changing genres, I obviously write across all different kinds of genres. I write historical, I've written fantasy. A lot of thriller, suspense, psychological dystopian, but that voice is still the same. It's still a Mindy McGinnis book. And while my readers don't always follow me, like my fantasy for example, like most of my readers could care less about it. Fantasy is a niche that you either read or you don't, but you can still read it and be like, oh I can tell that Mindy McGinnis wrote this, and I imagine it's similar with yours. 

Chelsea: Absolutely. And the second book which is entitled All I Want for Christmas is the Girl in Charge, one of the main characters in that one is a former child prodigy, a violinist and he's a current juvenile delinquent and he has this darker past that he's working through. And so that's an example of some of those darker elements coming in. And then also the book four All I Want for Christmas is the Girl Who Can't Love, my heroine, Savannah is dealing with a difficult relationship with her mother as well as this supposed family curse that makes it so that if they fall in love with anybody, like it's just not going to work out, it's doomed to fail. And so she's just decided that love as a concept isn't a real thing. Like she just focuses on the biology behind and the Chemistry behind it. This is what's happening in your brain when you fall in love and because I can name it, I can also choose not to partake in it. And so she has a little bit of a darker arc as well, even though it's a lighter Christmas read. 

Probably out of the four books, my third book, All I Want for Christmas is the Boy I Can't Have is probably the lightest because the hero and the heroine developed this connection over a shared love of romantic comedies. And so that one definitely is like the lightest one. But even there, the hero, August, is dealing with the fact that his father has these really crippling expectations on what he wants his son to do with his life and it doesn't line up with what August actually wants to do. And so they're lighter books, but they definitely have those darker themes of trying to fight for what you want, or fight through maybe some past traumas and things.

Mindy: Talking about writing and having to generate these books in general. You said, you have edits due for the very last one coming up here this weekend? Now you're edging really close into turning in book four and then promoting book one. So are you going to deal with A flurry of three months worth of promo? 

Chelsea: Like I said, I mean just knowing the season of life I'm in, I'm not in a time where I used to be like when I had no kids, I had all the time in the world really to devote to that sort of thing. Or if my kids were in full time school, which they're not, you know, they're not old enough for that yet, then maybe I'd have a little more time to focus on this thing. So right now I'm really trying to take an approach of - just do what you can, just getting the word out. And also these preorder swag campaigns, that's probably gonna be honestly the biggest undertaking, depending on how many preorders I get in. It’s having to do all the mailing and everything for that. And then just reaching out to people who have been such support systems for me from the beginning. Other authors who are so generous to promote the book as well on their platforms and things and just try not to freak out about what I can't control. 

Mindy: Well that's key to publishing in general because you can't control much. I actually just got all my royalty statements yesterday. For those of you that don't know, when you get your royalty statement, it's already six months behind in traditional publishing. It lets me know how many books have sold and how much I've earned and earned out. So the one I just got is through June of this year. So I ended up looking at my royalty statements last night, it is hard to have any idea what you have done that actually mattered or had any impact because this is just an amalgamation of numbers covering six months worth of sales. So as a traditional author you can't see - I paid for this ad in Facebook, I paid for this Book Bub. I did this or I did this author visit or I did a whole bunch of swag mailing. You're sending up little lanterns and hoping that they are shedding light somewhere and had some impact. But you really don't know.

I’m operating with a foot in both worlds. Under my indie name, there's so much more power because you know - this week I've got this promo running and you can follow your numbers by the hour and you can see the impact. I wouldn't give up either one of them. I love both of them for different reasons. I'm sure you remember I used to like really freaking try. When Not A Drop to Drink came out, one of my swag - which was clever - but one of my swag items was a bottle of water. I made stickers that wrapped around the label, the company label and it was the cover of my book and a tagline and a QR code that you could scan and it was clever. But at the same time water is freaking heavy. I would have to carry bottles of water around like I couldn't travel with, I couldn't fly with it that doesn't go through security. 

It was an event with ALA and I had bought bottles of water in Chicago and spent time putting stickers on 200 bottles of water and then setting them out on all the tables for when the librarians came in. They were like, oh cool. Yeah, this is clever. I like this And then you know, they drank the water and threw the bottles away. I will never forget walking through that room and seeing the trash cans that were full of my swag. I just kind of stopped doing all of that because I figured out how much effort and work I was putting into something that I couldn't actually track if it was effective. I do think preorder campaigns are worth it from everyone I've talked to that has done it. I don't want to do what you're doing. It's awesome that you do. And I know people that have amazing luck doing that. A lot of people will have those pre-order campaigns. I don't think I have the patience.

Chelsea: One of the things that I was really excited about number one, I'm definitely making sure that the actual physical mailing is like small paper things so that hopefully it doesn't take a whole lot of time to put together and doesn't cost a whole lot to ship. But the other thing I was excited about doing these scene cards and I can't remember if I mentioned this already or not. But the other thing is a digital coloring page of that scene card that you can get just through your email. I really love that we can do things digitally because that also helps. And I loved the idea of that, because I'm thinking about doing something that promotes readers to maybe color the coloring page and then share it online and do some kind of big thing with that. 

And so I think the idea behind preorder swag is if you can find something where it continues to give life to the book so that it gives people a reason to continue posting about the books. Such as I got this awesome coloring page from this book that I love and I'm going to show, you know, it kind of keeps the momentum going and you're not doing more than just emailing this coloring page. So I was kind of looking for things like that. Again, I don't know how successful it will be, but I also, I'm trying to approach it less from an idea of marketing and more of an idea of just wanting to say thank you because again, there's only so much I can control and so it's my way of saying thank you to those who did pre order and I'm trying to keep my focus on healthier things than freaking out about numbers and things like that.

Mindy: You can't get that feedback right away in the traditional world. So like for example, I do get confused about timelines because we operate on all these different timelines in the traditional publishing world. So I got my royalty statement last night about my release, The Initial Insult. So that came out in February of 2021. Right, is that right? I think that's right. So it's October and I'm just now getting some sort of idea of how that book performed. That type of feedback, especially in this world where we just don't know what's going on most of the time, having these numbers eight months after the fact - there's so much not knowing and you kind of have to be like, you were mentioning freaking out over the things you can't control. You can't control most things in publishing. 

And so I have really made a point of, I'm just going to write my book and I'm going to handle the things I can handle. I do bookmarks. I find them to be super easy. People use them, they're light, like you were saying you can mail them. But my biggest thing has always been I do events and I show up and I do school visits and I try to put my physical self in front of people as much as possible because I'm a good speaker. And of course during Covid that was taken away from me.  Go out there, little dark depressing book in the middle of Covid and let's see what you can do out there on your own, right? I can't go with you. There's no touring, I've been doing this a long time now and it's kind of nice to just really hit that plateau. This is what I can do, this is what I can't do. You're going to let go of some things. 

Chelsea: Absolutely. That's the healthy thing to do. We only have so much capacity for stress. Like you don't need to focus it on things that you have no control over anyway when there's plenty of things in your life that you can control and that need more of your attention. And the other thing that I learned from an author friend of mine early on, she got a book deal before I did. And so I was able to kind of learn from her experience. She focused very heavily on promotion and marketing. It was a two book series. So she was just really heavy into making sure that the series got out there as far as it could go and do as well as it could. 

It's not that that wasn't helpful or successful for that series, but once she got to the end of all of it, she realized - I've spent all my time and promotion and I haven't written another book in so long. And so I'm going to have such a huge gap between books coming out. The idea that nothing sells frontlist, like backlist. Like she, she was not building any more books in the front, you know, to continue to support those books that she had already written and so I kind of was able to learn from her experience that yes, promotion is good. But the best thing you can be doing is working on the next book as well. And so just trying to find that balance between the two as opposed to putting too much emphasis on one or the other. 

Mindy: Last thing. Why don't you let listeners know where they can find the book? Because the first one, All I Want for Christmas is The Girl Next Door, is coming out at the end of this month. So why don't you let listeners know where they can find the book and where they can find you online? 

Chelsea: So the book is available for pre order for both e-book and paperback on amazon. But then also if you would like a signed personalized copy, you can get it through Gathering Volumes Bookstore. You can go to their website and request it to be signed and or personalized. I'm happy to do both. And you can also find the links to both of those on my Instagram bio. The link in there and my Instagram is at Chelsea Bolboski C H E L S E A B O B U L S K I. And as I said, I'm mostly on Instagram but I have a website Chelsea Bobulski dot com That is being updated as we speak. I don't update it as much as I should. And then I also have a Facebook author page also under just at Chelsea Bobulski and those are all the places where you can find me. And if you have any questions, you can always message me on Instagram or also through the contact form on my website as well.

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Mindy: We're here with Caitlin Wahrer, author of The Damage which released on June 15 and Caitlin has written a really edgy, propulsive read. It's all about a small town family dealing with the aftermath of a brutal rape of one of their family members. But one of the things that makes this so interesting is that the victim is male. And as soon as I read the summary, I thought, oh well this is different. So I'm first of all just was so entranced by the description because it tackles something that is important to me, which of course is sexual assault and the aftermath and how it affects so many people, not just the victim. Then to kind of flip the script and have the victim be male, I thought was really pretty ingenious. So if you would like to talk a little bit about the book, The Damage and why you decided to approach it the way you did. 

Caitlin: The first idea that I had was about a husband and wife, a problem that they were going to go through in terms of the wife realizing that her husband was going through a pretty negative change and was starting to feel vengeful about something and I thought, okay, so I'm going to give him a younger sibling but I don't want it to be a female. If I'm going to have a victim in the book, I want it to be male because I don't want to write female. And that was really how I started off with the very beginning of Nick's character. From there, I ended up deciding pretty cautiously to be honest, to write about sexual assault and just with each draft of the book, I would have someone else read it and be like, what do you think of this? And kind of talk to them about it. And with each draft, I decided okay, like I'm going to keep going with this version of the story. 

But ultimately it really came from a place of almost feeling a little bit tired of reading about female victims and just wanting it to be different. But then once I had done that I realized I had set up this total need to talk about what Nick would be going through and maybe parts of it would be recognizable to victims of any gender. But some of it is kind of specific to male survivors or at least specific to like broad strokes what researchers say male survivors go through. It ended up being this really interesting, possibly important or at least hopefully done in a way that isn't harmful discussion of what a young man might experience after a sexual assault. 

Mindy: You mentioned that you have done some research. Many of the things that Nick goes through are very similar to what a female would go through. So for example, just of course the feeling of being violated, but also that concern about, well I went willingly to this man's house, we had drinks together. Does it look bad that I was out cruising? That of course is universal. And as we all know, is the first thing that comes up in female rape case. What were you wearing? Where were you? How much had you had to drink? At what point did you remove consent? And is that even plausible? The similarities are definitely there. If you could talk a little bit about your research and the similarities between a female survivor and then of course the differences between a female and a male survivor of sexual assault. 

Caitlin: I completely agree with what you said about some of the big similarities. I think that anyone who engages the criminal justice process, whether they do it voluntarily looking for justice or if it kind of happens without them even really almost consenting to the fact that there is now going to be a criminal procedure. You know, a lot of times people aren't really told what it's going to entail, how long it's going to take, what possible outcomes are. And in the case of this story, it really gets kicked off because Nick's friends call the police on their way to the hospital. And so he feels like he didn't even really decide to involve the police, it happened there. Here and now he feels the need to deal with it. But also, I think that no matter who you are, if you engage the criminal process, a big part of what happens is your story just gets completely picked apart and almost removed from you in the sense that people are interviewing you, they really want to make sure that your statements are consistent. 

So you're almost getting cross examined when you're getting interviewed, depending on how the interviewer handles the situation. Some do it differently, but it's kind of common, at least for detectives or police officers, Sheriff's deputies, whoever is doing it in that jurisdiction to kind of really be needling almost the survivor about what happened because they know that a defense attorney is going to do the same thing later on. Criminal procedures tend to kind of be a zero sum game from the defense perspective. Not always, not every defense attorney, but I do think that that's a huge part of what happens. And so that part of the experience can be re-traumatizing and really brutal and unhelpful no matter who you are. So that's another thing that I think is really similar regardless of your gender. 

But one thing that I kind of realized as I just read things over the years that I worked on the book and eventually started reading textbooks almost about male survivors, how it impacts their view of themselves as men. And this is not universal at all. But a common thing that this textbook was talking about and that I read in other places is this idea that men in America and probably lots of other places grow up with this really strong message about what it means to be a man, what it means to be masculine, you're a winner. You end fights, you are sexually aggressive and sexually available, always. You are kind of supposed to be physically dominant and being sexually victimized by someone is the antithesis of a lot of that messaging that men get. It also really impacts their views of themselves as men and women definitely have their own things that they would struggle with. It's not exactly that because that's not the messaging that they're getting. 

And so that was something that I realized was kind of missing in the story that it would be really natural that Nick would probably struggle with that, especially given how his brother was acting in the wake of the crime, trying to fix everything, really micromanaging him and breathing down his neck about what Nick wants and what he thinks Nick wants and not listening to him. And so Nick loses a lot of agency throughout the story. And some of it I think naturally is tied to his view of himself as a man. 

Mindy: That's one of the, I think the biggest things that comes into it as far as the differences. I just very recently finished listening to Missoula by Jon Krakauer. The football team was basically sexually assaulting people left and right and they weren't getting reported or it was being brushed under the rug. One of their administrations even just referred to it as thuggery. One of the things that was really interesting to me listening to that book, like it was very, very difficult to listen to because for one thing they examined very carefully, two or three different cases. One of them, the assailant did end up serving hard time and in another got off like scot free. And what you're talking about with the absolute picking apart of the story and everyone being asked for the most extreme details, not only intimate details, but also  - did you ask before you changed positions, did you consent to change? Like questions that are highly detailed about things that you may not be making a note of in the moment and they’re you know, intense moments anyway. 

And I think for me, one of the things while reading your book that stood out was the fact that Nick, as I said before is dealing with a lot of the same when it comes to similar reactions of how much of this is my fault and was I consenting to a point? Now with Nick, it's a little different because he is assaulted. He's hit on the head before the crime actually commences so he doesn't have to work quite so hard to establish himself as an unwilling participant. However, just the fact that he is male brings it back to - for women if they freeze and they're asked why didn't you scream? Why didn't you fight back? You know, the answer is like I'm paralyzed with fear, but for a man like you were saying you're supposed to fight back, like fighting is your instinct, you know, why didn't that happen? 

Caitlin: I kind of made a point because I was using the internet also the way that there would be a newspaper article published online and there's always a comment section and those comments sections are just the worst places on the planet basically. And I kind of felt like that was a really natural place for people to be almost kind of putting some of that toxic masculine ideas out there of like - is it even really believable that he was unconscious from being hit on the head? Do we even believe that part of it? He probably did consent to all of this, and then he made up a story, or maybe he was actually so drunk and embarrassed that he couldn't hold his liquor, like, just kind of all of this trash that people in real life post on these stories. But in this case they're posting in about a man and the different things that they would think about that, and also some comments about the fact that he's a gay man, all of that kind of coming out and being part of what Nick is dealing with the anxiety and additional trauma around the event, knowing that people think that kind of stuff about him and are talking about it and wondering if it's going to impact the outcome of the case, and does it even matter? It's impacting him right now.

Mindy: Right. I thought too, one of the things that really got my attention was the pattern for the assailant is still very similar because they talk about this man who has done this before, who is looking for younger men who may not necessarily be out, and so he knows that if he can attack these people, the possibility of the crime actually being reported is lower. Of course they have the toxic masculinity to deal with, but they're also making that want to even be reporting well, I was in this bar, because we know that’s a gay bar. The similarities between when rapists are on the hunt or kind of picking out someone they might be interested in using as a victim, looking for someone that maybe is younger, a little more insecure, a little more naive. I thought it was interesting the way those elements stay static. 

Caitlin: It felt like that was at least somewhat natural to do. Although I think that it's also possible that men who sexually assault other men, maybe there are some different characteristics for them. I think that they're also just not really talked about and researched as much, you know. But I did think that in some cases that I have read about or I've you know read books where a man wrote an account after the fact, it did seem like those kinds of things were just like you said static, similar people who do this are doing it for a reason that doesn't really have anything to do with who you are as the victim. They're just picking you out. Thinking this is gonna work for me to get away with this.

Mindy: Easy prey.

Caitlin: Yeah.

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Mindy: One of the things that I liked so much about the book was showing those ripples throughout a group setting, a family dynamic where everybody is affected by this because I don't think that we as a society, no matter what the gender of the victim is, I don't think that we really give enough weight to how this radiates outwardly from that person, how this one event impacts so many people. And one of the things in particular that was almost in another way, kind of another gender flip that I thought was really interesting - the older brother who is married to Julia is having a hard time thinking about Julia now because she used to be a defense lawyer, and she in her past has defended rapists as a defense lawyer for the state.

And it begins to kind of chip away for him at this trust that had been in this marriage and now he has to think of his wife as someone in the past has been on the side, because the definition of her job, of the assailant. And they have multiple conversations where he's kind of picking at that and and and asking himself, you know, who is this person that is my wife, that if the straw were drawn differently, she would be defending the man who raped my little brother? And that's one of the relationships that is negatively affected by this event. So if you could talk a little bit about how that just radiates out and affects so many aspects of course, of the survivors life, but then those around them.

Caitlin: I love the example that you picked out because I really liked writing that I think because I was a defense attorney. And so I think that maybe even Tony's point of view is somewhat maybe a more critical side of myself looking at myself. But at the same time, I agree with Julia that defense attorneys are completely constitutionally necessary. And so that was a really interesting thing to write. And it definitely, like you said, as Tony becomes more and more angry and dysfunctional about what has happened and what is continuing to happen as the process goes on, he feels like he can't talk to Julia because she's not going to get it because of her history. At the same time, Julia is feeling like Tony's being totally unreasonable and she can't share everything with him because he's in such an unreasonable place. 

And so their communication completely breaks down over the course of the book and I think that you definitely see little snippets of how it impacts their kids, but I didn't focus on that too heavily. Also how it impacts the relationship between Nick and the friend he was with at the bar when he went home with the man. He feels like it had nothing to do with her, but she seems to feel guilty about it and that just makes him feel tired, and like it's worse that she's acting like she has anything to do with it. And it really just kind of their relationship falls apart and maybe he does have some anger at her once he starts to really process it. 

And then at the same time Nick and Tony have a father in common and they each have mothers and Julia has a mom. And so the extended family all become impacted. I think for me as a former attorney, most of what I did really was an adult criminal law, it was juvenile defense. And so that's just defending kids, mostly teenagers who were charged with crimes. And I also did a lot of child protection work. So that's cases where the state steps in to protect a child in a home. With those kinds of cases, everything that I worked on was impacting a family unit. That's kind of just how I've grown to see a single criminal act impacts so many different people and how that family unit responds to the, either the criminal act or maybe an allegation of child neglect or allegation of child abuse, whatever it is, it's how that family functions or doesn't function that can determine so much of how that case ends. 

Because even in juvenile cases, although sometimes we're looking at punishing a juvenile for specifically what they did or did not do during that moment of the alleged criminal act, a lot of it depends on their conduct after the fact. So even if they did something quite damaging, if they go through a whole year of therapy, they might end up not having a criminal record that's going to follow them into adulthood. Whereas if they do something really small, but then they're violating their terms of conditions of release for the next whole year, they might end up with something that's going to follow them because they just weren't doing what the court wanted them to do. And so I'm just really used to seeing things as how is the family handling the situation? How are they supporting each other or how are they falling apart? How are they negatively impacting each other? And what is that doing to what the process is going to look like as we go forward?

Mindy: And it has such a huge impact. I worked in a high school for 14 years. So I know that when you have situations like that, I don't think we give enough credit to Children often about what they do and do not understand what they can process or what they're capable of, but I also think at times it goes the other way where we we forget that you know, a 16, 17 18 year old is still a kid and are like completely overwhelmed by so many things. 

Caitlin: Totally, totally. And I think for me at least coming from that background, even though Nick is a 20 year old man, I think of him still as being a kid in certain ways. Like when I think about young men, I always think about not having your frontal lobes and what a difference that makes the part of your brain that helps you say pause - is this really a good idea? I'm having a really impulsive desire to do something. In Nick's case to me what's being impacted by his not being fully developed as an adult is later in the book, he really struggles with self harm and just kind of like impulsive desires to cause harm to himself because of what's happened and he's really not able to pause and stop himself. And I think that that's really realistic and I saw that in young men sadly as in my job.

Mindy: It’s really interesting that you included that aspect, especially of youth because you're right, we aren't fully developed mentally for a while, even though we are legally adults, I don't know that the brain can really align with that moment of turning 18 and suddenly know you're an adult now!

Caitlin: Totally. I agree with you. Yeah. I think it's like 26 or maybe it's 24, I can't remember .but it's well into your twenties for most male brains at least to finalize all of the structures of their brain. 

Mindy: Yes, it is. And I know that I personally, I tell people often, I don't feel Like I really knew who I was or what I wanted until I was probably 30. I think it's an interesting kink that you threw there where the victim’s also quite young and maybe in some ways not even fully capable of processing what has actually happened to them. Initially Nick just keeps insisting. No, I'm fine. Like even the morning after when people are in the hospital with him and his face is smashed and he's like, I'm fine. 

Caitlin: I think that's really common. I think that happens also for adults, sometimes it's partly, you know, the trauma of very, very slowly being able to understand almost or at least acknowledge what has just happened. But definitely I think a huge part of it too is that throughout the whole book and from that very first interaction, Tony is making his younger brother feel like a kid the whole time they're interacting and it's the last thing that actually wants. 

Mindy: You got a blurb from Stephen King. Congratulations!

Caitlin: Oh my gosh, thank you. 

Mindy: That's a nice little feather in your cap. How did you go about making that happen?

Caitlin: I feel like I can't even take credit for it. My editor, I don't know if she sent him a letter or just an email or how it happened, but I think it was my editor Pam Dorman who reached out to him and what I kind of have heard through the grapevine after the fact from someone else is that he's really good to debut authors. He knows what it was like to be a total newbie in this really scary book world and he knows how much a review from him means. And so I think that it was probably just an act of kindness and maybe maybe the Maine connection too, because I was born here. I still live here. That might have been it too. 

But all I know is that it was just like the most exciting thing. So I actually just had a baby five weeks ago and I think I was like maybe I had her a matter of days after he gave the blurb. And my husband and I were just like, the whole day that it had happened, we were like you're going to just go into labor today out of excitement, that’s what's going to happen! But it happened a few days later, but still, I was just like, I was like over the moon, I couldn't, I genuinely love him so much and I have been reading his stuff and listening to his lectures and I love his books. I used to think he was too scary for me but in the last few years I started reading him and I was like, oh no, actually I love this.

Mindy: I’m not even pregnant and I think if Stephen King blurbed me I'd go into labor. 

Caitlin: Right? You would just like have a baby? 

Mindy: Yeah, I would just have a baby. Well, congratulations. That's truly amazing. I agree. I've never had the opportunity to meet Stephen King but I have heard that he is extremely kind, very generous to new authors, aware of his own position and status and how he can kind of confer that onto others. So that's super cool. Last thing, why don't you let my listeners know where they can find you online and where they can find the book The Damage.

Caitlin: I think that both my Instagram and Twitter handles are just my name, Caitlin Wahrer, which is C A I T L I N   W A H R E R  My facebook, I have a Facebook page that I neglect but it does exist and I try to post every now and then. And that is also just my name. I think you can buy The Damage. just about anywhere. A lot of our local bookstores in Maine have it. So definitely if you love supporting your local bookstores, you can check Indie Bound. It's also available on Amazon and Barnes and Noble and Books a Million and probably other places that I'm forgetting.

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Laurell K. Hamilton On Starting A New Series

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Mindy: We’re here with Laurell K. Hamilton, the best selling author of gosh, let's see how many books at this point? 

Laurell: Well, I'm writing my 41st, so 40 novels.

Mindy: Wow, that is, that is seriously impressive. I'm on 12 and that feels good. So I can't imagine 40. 

Laurell: My goal is to have the same amount in one series that the Nero Wolfe books by Rex Stout, which is 70 something. 

Mindy: Your newest series is coming out for the first time in 20 years - a new series, which begins with A Terrible Fall of Angels, is the title of the first one. It deals with angels and demons and angelology, which just draws me in immediately because I am a huge fan of angelology and just kind of got pulled into that when I was in college actually. So if you'd like to talk a little bit about the new series and about the new book, A Terrible Fall of Angels.

Laurell: A Terrible Fall of Angels is set in modern America. It's all over the world. But this book is set in America. The main character is detective Zaniel Havelock who is a member of the metaphysical coordination unit, also known as the Heaven and Hell squad. If you have a crime that has angelic or demonic overtones, that's who you want to call. Especially Daniel because Daniel is an angel speaker. He was trained at the College of Angels to be able to communicate with the highest order of angels, not everybody can train up with the highest order of angels and survive intact. He was one of their shining stars as a pupil, but something tragic happened and he felt he could no longer serve there. He left at age 20. And he lived there since he was seven. It's like a cloistered order. So he left. He could speak with angels and do all sorts of wonderful mystical things. But he'd never seen a computer, didn't know how to fill out a job application. 

So six ft three walks past a recruiter station for the Army and the recruiter goes, young man, may I speak with you? So he joined the Army, did a tour there and now he is a police detective, but he can still speak with angels because this is a world where everyone knows that heaven and hell have a treaty. They have agreed not to do Armageddon and destroy the world. But there are rules, how many demons can come up, how much tormenting can they do. There are ways both sides can break the treaty, but it's primarily on hell's shoulders, what will break the treaty and what will not. And if the treaty is broken, then literally the end of the world happens. So the metaphysical coordination unit and other units like it around the world helped keep this from happening. But Zaniel was the only angel speaker to be fully trained and to leave voluntarily to go out in the larger world. 

That old saying you don't know you're in a cult until you leave? Well, Zaniel didn't realize that the College of angels really is a cult, or that's how other people see it. There's been a tell all documentary on people trying to get their Children back. It's very interesting to have him be my eyes on the world. One of the other detectives, she says - you say things like you're in all old fogey, like you should be somebody's grandpa. And he says, well, I was raised with people saying things like that. Because working with the angels lengthens your life. So some of the people teaching have been up there for a very long time and nobody talks about it. Nobody talks about it much at the school. You're not supposed to talk about it outside the school that dealing with the angels and living at the College of Angels actually lengthens your lifetime a great deal. If you look at the old testament, you have several people that are living over 100 - that's mentioned more than once. 

Mindy: And so what brought you to this idea of working specifically with angels and demons? Because you've obviously worked in those areas before in the realm of the paranormal and the urban fantastical elements. Why this time angels and demons specifically? 

Laurell: You know, I've been asked that and I don't have a good answer because literally the idea for this book - I was, to my knowledge, I was not reading, watching or studying on angels. I had like one book, one or two books on it, but it wasn't an area of study. I'm not into angelology, I wasn't raised Christian or any of the other religions of the book. I really didn't have a background in it. But suddenly out of nowhere, almost 10 years ago a line came to me - there were angel feathers in the dead woman's bed. I thought, wow, that's a great first line. So I wrote it down on a sticky note and I put it up on my wall in my office. And what I find is that if I put something in a note and put it on a piece of paper and I put it in a file, if I don't periodically go through the files, I forget about it. But if I put it up on my wall where I pass by it every day -  if I pass by too much, I don't see it anymore. So you have to move it around a little to make sure every once in a while that it refreshes. 

But this one I kept coming back to, I thought it was a short story. In 2014, I was still actively writing the Merry Gentry series and the Anita Blake series. But this idea wouldn't leave me alone. So I thought you know what, I'll sit down, I'll write it. Maybe it's a short story I can get out of my mind and the creative logjam will be undone. I almost wrote the first chapter At one setting and I thought this is a book, not only this is a book of a series and I think I cannot do three series. I want to, but I cannot do it. Please. 

So I put it in a file and then I wrote the ninth Merry Gentry book, A Shiver of Light. And then in 2020 I picked it back up. I thought I'm finally ready. I've done Suckerpunch, which was the 27th Anita Blake novel, and finished it up. Now I can go to it. And then 2020 happened. And I've never had a book so interrupted partly because of everything that was happening in the world, partly because I sent Suckerpunch off to be edited just as lockdown happened. And my editor and everybody at my publishing house was barred from their building. Everything changed, the edits took longer. 

So it interrupted the book and I had to put it aside for A Terrible Fall of Angels. And then I went back to it and then I had this great idea because one of things all the fans told me is one of things that was helping them through lockdown was reading my books, giving them a refuge. It gave them a place to be when they couldn't leave where they were. I contacted my editor and said, can I do an extra book, like a small book like Micah or Jason? She says, well can you? Can you do that and then meet your other deadlines? I suppose I think I can, that's how we got Rafael. Unfortunately, or fortunately Rafael ended up being long enough, it could have been a main book. It was not short like Jason and Micah , the way I was hoping it would be, I loved Rafael, I love the world building with the where rats and Rafael has been a character from the beginning. He deserved a bigger book. It was great. But again, delays. Went back to A Terrible Fall of Angels then had to stop for edits on Rafael finally sat down with it. The world is still in chaos. 

And I believe that all the stops and starts and all the delays helped make this book a much lighter book. It's a dark book. I mean, you have demons and you fight demons and everything, but you also have the angels and the angels are very present and positive magic, not just the angels, but positive magic. In Wiccan you have spirit guides and you have totems and you have all this positive spiritual help that is around all of us. And it's this idea that we are not alone. We are not isolated. There's help at hand and that you know, the deity, the universe, they really do want us to be happy and to feel positive and to be uplifted instead of down with this heaviness that we all seem to be fighting against lightly. 

Mindy: Very, very true. I know that a lot of writers really struggled over Covid. I think I discovered that when I am moving out in the world and interacting with people, I'm drawing energy from them. And when I come back to sit down, that energy is coming back out in the form of my writing. And when I couldn't go out and move among people and draw energy, I would sit down in front of my laptop already drained, unable to produce something. Motivation wasn't necessarily a problem. I would just literally sit down and be like, I am too tired to do this. 

Laurell: I think that a lot of us, even those of the introverts, have found that that little exchange of just going out and doing errands and exchanging with real people really is more of a social exchange than we thought it was. I didn't have any trouble writing at the beginning. But then I had just finished like I said about 27 and I brought book 28 and this is a series I've been writing for for decades. So that helped. But then in writing A Terrible Fall of Angels, you know, the impetus of the deadline helped light a fire under me. And also exploring a new world was both very much harder than I remembered it, and also energizing at the same time that it's hard and I was doing pretty well. I was giving people extra stories and I wanted to do that. I was reaching out to people through my writing. And I also edited my first anthology during all of this Fantastic Hope with my co editor, William McCaskey. And you know, there's an original Anita Blake story in it and there's a lot of great stories and boy did we need an anthology of hopeful stories. 

And then it's now. Now I'm having more trouble. I'm writing the next Anita Blake novel, book 29. I've never had so much trouble writing Anita in my entire life. I thought we'd be out by now. You know, I thought we'd be back to some semblance of normality and now I am drained, now because all the things I normally do between books I haven't been able to do. I usually go and visit certain friends that I haven't been able to because of where they are. I go to the ocean and I was able to go briefly. But then well where I was, it was like - get out before the airport's closed! It wasn't that bad. It felt that bad. It felt that kind of urgency. As much as I love my house, my office and my beautiful garden and yard. And may I just say the garden and the water garden has been a godsend because I'm beginning to understand why people had walled gardens and spent some time with it. Because most people for most of history. If you traveled 20 miles away from home, that was a long way. Your garden really was a refuge, a place where you could go and relax. 

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Mindy: Yes. And I've always felt that way about my own, my own home. I live in Ohio. I live in the middle of nowhere. Just put a deck on before Covid hit. Have a good place for a hammock and I have a pond and I have all these wonderful little nooks and crannies all around my property where I can kind of go to recharge. But when I can't leave my property, it starts to all look the same and feel, like you were saying, when you walk past something that you see every day you don't see it anymore. I love my home. I love where I'm from. I love living in the middle of nowhere. But I had already experienced true isolation by choice. And when it’s enforced isolation... I haven't been on a plane since March of 2020. It's hard. I'm used to traveling a lot, traveling for school visits and library visits and talks and speeches and keynotes and that's, that's all gone. And that has really shown me how much of an extrovert I actually am.

Laurell: Under normal circumstances for A Terrible Fall of Angels, I would have been traveling all across the country.  But I made the choice. They didn't let me, but I made the choice for, I love my fans. They are so devoted. I've had people come straight from the hospital after abdominal surgery, one woman was in labor and she insisted on coming and oh my God, I have fans that I know are immunocompromised. I have fans that I know are ill. I'm not going to tempt them. I am not going to tempt them to a large group gathering under these circumstances. I just made the call for safety and caution for everybody that I would meet. Not just for me. 

We tried to go to theaters as much as we can because I'm afraid they're not going to make it. And I love going to the movie theater, the whole shebang. I love getting popcorn and soda and sitting there in the space. I don't care how big my big screen is. Just like we try to, you know, get out and support our local restaurants. We were doing take away during lockdown. 

Mindy: I had a book come out right at the beginning of March in 2020 and I was supposed to be gone the entire month of March, and like half of April I was not going to be home and of course that all got canceled. Good reason. We didn't really know what all was going on at the beginning. It was just like having your candle blown out. I was like, oh. I came home and kind of tried to launch a book from home, which it did fine. I think the reading has really come back. I think a lot of people have rediscovered reading. A lot of people that I know are usually big readers actually had trouble reading during COVID. 

Laurell: I did too. I have trouble reading for a lot of reasons. If I'm in the middle of writing a book or editing. Oh my God, if I'm editing a book, that's where I'm at, I can't read because I edit and everybody's books I'm going well that I'd have done that differently. I can't get out of my editor mode to be able to read. If I'm writing a book, I have to be careful because I would rather read what I'm writing. So it's hard to settle, or I don't want to get up from my computer and read exactly the same kind of thing I'm writing. Every book I write pretty much is genuinely a mystery, genuinely horror, genuinely fantasy. It is genuinely magic. It is genuinely all these things. I write all my favorite genres. So it's like, what, what's left to read? I'm trying to get back to finding fantasy that is different enough from what I write that I can read it without feeling like it's a busman's holiday. 

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Mindy: I have a Dalmatian who is very high maintenance and I love him very much. But he has to have a run every morning. 

Laurell: Gus.

Mindy: Yes, Mr. Gus. I never used to be a runner. I started running during the shutdown because I knew it would get bad if I didn't. 

Laurell: Congratulations. 

Mindy: Thank you. It was a smart move. It was a good move. I was lucky enough to live isolated so I can and it's not a problem for anyone. 

Laurell: I've wanted a Dalmatian since I was 12. I love the Disney cartoon, but it is so much better in the book. I read Dodie Smith's 101 Dalmatians 20 plus times. I'm not joking in the summer, one summer when I was 12. I wanted a Dalmatian from that time on. But I did my research. I'm not a runner. I'm not a jogger and it's over 100 degrees here and we're on pavement. It's too hot for the dog to run on. I am not a good owner for a Dalmatian. I know that I have to accept that the dog would be miserable. And in the right hands. I believe every breed in the right hands and the right family is a great dog. So many people, they treat the choice of a family member that is going to be with you, hopefully for at least 15 years, they treat it with less concern, less research, less thought than they do picking out an outfit. 

Mindy: It's pretty, I want the pretty one. 

Laurell: Yeah, I know. All puppies are cute. 

Mindy: Oh, they are, They're all adorable. I had done the research too and I had decided I did not want a Dalmatian. Well, I didn't even want a puppy. I was like, I'm adopting an adult from the pound. All my dogs have been pound dogs before. Well, this was during Covid and everybody had gone and adopted a dog and literally the only dogs left were like, has killed will kill again. Like there was nobody else. And I actually tried, I brought a dog home and one of my cats attempted to jump out of a closed second story window. It was just like, no, I'm, I'm just doing it. I'm leaving here any way I can. 

And then my sister was, she was buying pigs from a farm family in the next county over. And they were like, we also have free kittens and Dalmatian puppies. My sister sent me pictures of the puppies and I was like, oh God, I don't think I can do it. I got him at eight weeks and we started running at eight weeks and he is so dang smart. When we're running he runs to my right side and when a car comes, he breaks his stride and goes single file behind me and then comes around and goes up to the right and like never clips my heels. Never, I don't have to break stride at all.

Laurell: Wow, that's impressive. He's so smart. I always say wonderful things about dogs. So I love my Japanese chins but they were never really jogging companions. I keep thinking maybe adopting an older Dalmatian. But we have small dogs and we have cats and some Dalmatians can have a very high prey drive. We rescued one of our cats when she was at least six and the vet thinks she may have been 10. So she's getting up there and I'm not going to bring anything into the house that could be potentially dangerous for her. She's a grizzly bear. Griselda is her name but she has a really deep throaty purr. Had she not answered to her name, I wanted to name her Eartha Kitty. She has this great throaty torch singer purr. But she answered to her name. 

Mindy: Yeah, I mean if you are still interested in a Dalmatian at some point, I can tell you that Mr. Gus is very laid back. Yesterday I watched him run down like a bird that wasn't quite flying yet and it couldn't take off. But then it's like he caught up to it. He was just like mom, there's a thing over here, he was not going to put it in his mouth. Hey mom! I feel like there's no violence in this animal. There's none. 

Laurell: You just never know though. Prey drive is a natural thing. You can work around it and train around it. But how much prey driving an animal has? That's natural. So you lucked out.

Mindy: Yep, I did. He is a perfect boy and he knows it. He's looking at me right now when I say the phrase perfect boy, he's just like, yep, that's me. 

Laurell: Well you and Gus are meant for each other. Now, he's been raised with you not traveling. It's going to be really hard on him. 

Mindy: It's gonna be super, super hard. I was actually gone two weekends ago. I had a ComicCon and then this past weekend I spoke at a library conference. So I was gone the past two weekends and he was devastated. But he stays with my mom, he has a second home, he has 2nd and 3rd homes actually, so he does okay. Last thing, why don't you let listeners know where they can find you online and where they can find the book A Terrible Fall of Angels?

Laurell: Well, A Terrible Fall of Angels is available pretty much everywhere. My website Laurell K Hamilton dot com and I am Official underscore K Hamilton for Instagram. Twitter, I’m L K Hamilton, L. K. H. Underscore official is also for Tiktok, I'm pretty active online. With the lockdown, everything online is now part of the job. It's like the business has changed and I really think this is going to be a permanent change. A Terrible Fall of Angels is out everywhere bookstores and online. I'm getting a lot of love from fans and new fans and a lot of people said they were intimidated because they Anita Blake series was like 28 novels so long, so big. They're saying, oh, thank you for starting a new one. It's like, okay, trust me, the water is fine, come on in. 

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