Alexandra Bracken on Death of the Author, and How Family History Inspired Silver in the Bone

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Mindy: We're here with Alex Bracken, author of The Darkest Minds series and Lore. Of course, most of my listeners are going to be familiar with The Darkest Minds series, as it was also adapted to film and had an incredible amount of popularity. Alex's new book is called Silver in the Bone. It has a lot of different things that I'm personally super, super interested in related to it, such as the Arthurian classics, and also big, big interest for me? Genealogy, which I am absolutely fascinated with, and I want to follow up with you about the genealogy link in particular. But first, why don't you just tell us a little bit about Silver in the Bone?

Alex: This is my long cooking book, as I call it. It took a really long time to come together, and that's pretty unusual for me because once I have an idea, I'm running with it immediately. And I will brainstorm it, and I will figure out if it is like viable. And then if it's not viable, I drop it and it's on to the next idea. And if it is, I will immediately start writing it. But this book really took a while to just to cook. I'm trying to think of the best way to pitch it. I was really surprised by a lot of my professional trade reviews that cited it as being like dark fantasy horror. I was like, "I didn't write a horror novel." Like I'm... I'm such a weenie when it comes to anything related to horror. And it wasn't until I was talking to one of my author friends and kind of asking her how she would pitch this book... Because usually I'm pretty good at immediately identifying that, like, it's like X meets Y pitch. But for this one I had a really hard time, in part, because one of the obvious comps that I would use, I will not use because of the history with that author and all of that. So I made it very challenging for myself. This friend of mine was like, "Well, it's sort of like if Indiana Jones was a young woman and she set off to find something from Arthurian legend. So she crosses over into kind of this Arthurian mystical world, but it has like a dash of The Last of Us." And I was like, oh, so that's where the horror is coming from in all of these trade reviews. Because I hadn't really been thinking about it as a horror novel, but I can see now there is an essence of zombie, as I say, in the book. 

But it's really the story of a young woman who's grown up in this kind of hidden world of treasure hunters. The one thing that she is desperate to find but she can't is something powerful enough to break this horrible curse on her brother that's just slowly but surely consuming him. And so as like fate and plot convenience would have it, one of these very powerful relics turns up and she finds out that her long missing guardian, who disappeared almost ten years before, may have vanished looking for this object - which is the Ring of Dispel from Arthurian legend. It's said to be capable of breaking any curse, any enchantment, and it was given to Lancelot by the Lady of the Lake, if you are an Arthurian person. But she immediately sets off to find this ring, and of course, has to work with her infuriatingly handsome and charming rival. Their search eventually takes them into the mystic Isle of Avalon. But Avalon is suffering its own terrible curse. And unfortunately for them, if they can even find the ring, they're going to be fighting to survive. So that is the very basic pitch.

Mindy: You mentioned a comp title that you don't necessarily want to use, and we will leave that unnamed. However, something that I think is a really interesting conversation, and it is something that I personally struggle with as well. When we talk about art and we talk about the artist, I can go either way with it. I have a hard time when the artist, be it an author, a musician, a filmmaker, whatever they might be. If the artist, as a human being, is perhaps reprehensible, can we still enjoy the art that they have produced without feeling some sort of guilt? So that is a death of the author. Big question. What I use as an example in my own life is that I grew up loving film. Absolutely adore watching movies. It was probably my favorite pastime after reading as I was growing up, and in the 90s, Kevin Spacey was everything. If you were a serious person about film, you talked about Kevin Spacey...

Alex: Right. Yeah

Mindy: And how talented he was and how amazing he was. And now we know a lot of things about him in his personal life that are unacceptable. So that is something that I kind of struggle with now. Like, I cannot think about Kevin Spacey in any terms that are glowing or positive or even in some ways enjoy his work without having that little like shadow of a writer after it. And so given you mentioning a particular comp title that you yourself are not comfortable associating with your work, and I do not blame you at all, how do you feel about that? But even when it comes to your own work, do you want your readers to simply enjoy your art and perhaps not look for traces of you as a human being? Or attempt to learn more about you as a person? Where do you stand on this?

Alex: This is such an interesting question. It's something that I've been thinking about a lot lately because I am like the prime Harry Potter generation where I think I was the same age as Harry when the first Harry Potter book came out. So I really grew up with the Harry Potter books. Peak Millennial in that way. And so it's been really, really difficult to see the author, J.K. Rowling, say the things she is saying about the trans community, which I just vehemently do not agree with. This really interesting dynamic where when somebody asks me, like, what books did you read growing up? And what were your favorite books growing up? It's like, "Well, that's my answer. It's Harry Potter," but I don't feel right talking about them anymore. I don't feel comfortable. I mean, not that Harry Potter needs my promotion here, but like, it's it's still so popular. That's what's so wild to me, too. Is that, like, as much as people are talking about the things that J.K. Rowling has said, you know, those books are still perennial bestsellers. They just go and go and go on the sales front. So I don't know if people don't care or people don't know, but I have a really hard time now recommending them to younger readers who are just starting out, and I don't know how to feel. Actually, I don't feel good. I… I do know how I feel. I don't feel good about there being a new Harry Potter show, which is something that I would have loved all of those years ago. 

With this comp title that I don't want to name, it's not as popular as Harry Potter still is, and so I have made an effort not to talk about it at all, even though I've read it when I was... I think maybe a freshman in high school. And it had a huge impact on me. And I feel like many people who are listening to this will know what we're talking about. The author we're talking about has just like a horrible, horrible crime associated with her life. It just completely changed my relationship with that book, and it's not as popular as I was saying as Harry Potter is now. So I'm not going to, like talk about the book and give it a platform or anything like that. That's how I'm kind of choosing to address these things. So I personally have a really hard time separating the artist from whatever the form of artwork it is. I think because I put so much of myself in my stories, every character kind of has a little essence of me in it, even if it's just like my sense of humor or some random observation that I've had about life. I just  can't divorce the creator from the creation in a way that I think some people are able to. For me, I know how much I put into my own work, and I assume that's very similar for other creators too. So yeah, it's, it's always, um, really sad when it happens. It's really devastating to me that I feel like I can't talk about the series that had such an impact on me growing up and made me... You know, really reaffirmed me wanting to become a writer. And so... But at the same time, I can't support her, and I can't support the things that she said. I support the trans community, and I'm not going to feel sorry for myself that I can't talk about these things when trans people are suffering every single day. So I almost think, too, it's like even a little different. I don't know if you would agree with this. Like when it's an actor, you can still almost enjoy the movie around them? I don't know, because they play a part? Whereas like with the novel, it's like the novelist has created everything in relation to it.

Mindy: It's a good question because when an author creates a piece of work, typically that is going to be a vehicle that carries their own thoughts or worldview or beliefs in them, and it is an all encompassing thing. Whereas a film is more of a team effort. Our whole conversation doesn't have to be about this, but it is really interesting because this has been present in my life recently. I am dating a person that is very much an outdoorsman and listens to a lot of different podcasts that are about hunting and fishing and like all those things. And recently sent me a link to a podcast called the Bear Grease Podcast, and they had done a series of episodes. At this point in time, there was only one episode available, but it was about a book that is called The Education of Little Tree. And The Education of Little Tree is a book that has been used in classrooms, and it's been touted as this great Native American semi-biographical story about a Cherokee boy. It was on Oprah's book list for a long time, and everyone was just like, "Yes, this book is a wonderful representation of the Native American experience." It turns out that the author of The Education of Little Tree was actually terribly racist human being that was George Wallace's speechwriter.

Alex: Oh, my gosh.

Mindy: Yeah,

Alex: How have I never heard of this before?

Mindy: It's one of those things that just kind of has flown under people's radar. Everyone now that knows that part of the story has had to rethink The Education of Little Tree. Oprah took it off of her book list, and universities won't teach it. The same question comes into play. Is The Education of Little Tree still a worthy piece of literature? My answer on that one is a lot easier because the author was posing as a Native American when they were in fact a white person and a horribly racist one as well.

Alex: Oh geez.

Mindy: So that one becomes a little easier to, I believe, answer but complicated question, right? As I said, it's been present for me, pretty widely present for me, lately. I was just... Saturday night was hang out with my boyfriend, and he's a person that likes to just like shoot through YouTube and find little videos to watch. I don't know if you'll remember this. You're quite a bit younger than me. Mike Myers had his Austin Powers movies. In the very opening, I believe, of the third one was like a farce where it's the Austin Powers movie, but they're on the set of Austin Powers being made into a movie. And Steven Spielberg is directing it. Tom Cruise is playing Austin. Kevin Spacey is Dr. Evil. Uma Thurman is the love interest, and Danny DeVito is Mini-Me. And I'm like, Gosh, like the only person that survived this that I don't look at them and go, "Oh yeah, that person..." is Danny DeVito.

Alex: Oh my gosh.

Mindy: Man, like it was this really funny, farcical, five to six minute clip. And my boyfriend was laughing. He was like, "Man, that was really funny." And I was like, "You know, it was. But I couldn't laugh." Every single person in this, like, incredibly hilarious in the mid-90s little scene has now become associated with really negative things for me mentally and emotionally. So it's like...

Alex: Yeah.

Mindy: Whether or not they are representing themselves or a piece of art, I'm bringing a reluctance to it just because I see them.

Alex: One thing I think a lot about is everybody is an imperfect person. Everybody... The goal is to continue to learn and to continue to better yourself and to continue to become a better citizen of society. To be more generous and loving towards others. To expand your knowledge and sensitivities and all of that. And I know like in The Darkest Minds series, there are certain things that I would never write now. You know, however many... Gosh, over ten years later, I have like thankfully learned that these things are insensitive.

Mindy: Another example, and we will bring this topic to a close. But another example is J.D. Salinger. We've learned some things about J.D. Salinger that aren't terribly attractive. And should we stop teaching The Catcher in the Rye? I know a lot of especially young men that became readers simply because of The Catcher in the Rye. So it's tough. I don't expect you to have the answer, that's for sure.

Alex: I know. I was like, "Oh, gosh." I know this is something I think about a lot, though, too, because in my effort to be a better person, to write more sensitively and all of that, I've definitely made mistakes in my own books, and I try really hard to acknowledge them when they come up in conversation. I try not to shy away from them, and I think maybe that's a difference that's important to me. I don't know if it's going to be true for everybody else, but I think creators who can acknowledge that they've made missteps in the past, that they had, you know, unconscious bias and all of that as they were writing or creating or TV shows and movies that are really a product of their time. I think if you can acknowledge your growth and acknowledge that they are in some ways problematic, then that's a little bit different than discovering somebody has this like ongoing viewpoint that you just cannot support and won't support financially, or by talking about the project or anything like that. I think that is a little bit different because I do think one thing that sometimes is missing from discussions is the allowance for personal growth and somebody going on that sort of journey of realizing that they were wrong, like that doesn't necessarily happen overnight. So yeah, really, really tough topic, something that I think is very worthy of discussion, and I'm sure people listening to us will not agree and some people will agree and that's important too. So...

Mindy: That's okay. That's why it's a tough topic. I'm a fan. I need to correct myself really quickly. It was not Uma Thurman. It was Gwyneth Paltrow.

Alex: Oh, okay. I was like, "What did Uma do?"

Mindy: No, Uma's great.

Alex: I was trying to... I was like, hmm.

Mindy: You're like "Oh, no. Now I have to Google Uma."

Alex: I know. 

Mindy: I don't wanna know. 

Alex: I'm muting myself typing.

Mindy: I'm sorry I misspoke. I got my wrong 90s blonde in there. No, I'm sorry. It was Gwyneth Paltrow. And again, what I said about Uma still applies. Gwyneth being the least offensive of the crew, and Danny DeVito, to my mind, being as far as I know, a perfectly wonderful human being. So...

Alex: Yeah.

Mindy: Great conversation. I appreciate you going down that route with me. These are the things I think about. And of course, like, as you said, we as ourselves, as authors, we live in a different world now. Our lives are very open to the public whether we want them to be or not. We have to always be aware of every word that comes out of our mouths. And I find that to be a positive because it makes me think a little harder before I run my mouth, which is something that, you know, 44. Still working on it. Um.

Alex: Me too. Still working on it.

Mindy: I enjoy hard questions, so thank you.

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Mindy: Speaking of, though, about putting ourselves into our books and our own personal experiences... A lot of the new book, Silver in the Bone, was inspired by a deep dive that you took into your own genealogy and you discovered the squire... Is it Richard Cabell or Cabell?

Alex: In my family, we say Cabell. This story actually has quite a sad beginning. So my dad was the reason I loved history, that I got into fantasy. He was someone who, you know, when I would go in to say good night, he was always reading like a mass market fantasy novel. He was a really big Tolkien reader and all of that. And he was a Star Wars collector. So he was all about sci-fi fantasy, and he loved loved history. So my dad had been recently diagnosed with terminal cancer. And so we were talking one day, and he mentioned to me that like one of the things he always regretted not doing was looking into our family genealogy. That had been important to him. He had some pieces of it that he had kind of inherited from my grandmother and from other family relations on the Bracken side. And so I offered to basically put together the family tree for him and see if there were any really interesting ancestors that came up. 

It really is actually a privilege to be able to look into your family history. Not everybody is lucky enough to have these documents that go back and back and back through the centuries of just very basic, even birth and death records have been denied to many people. And there are certainly many branches of my family tree that I can't access because I don't speak Greek or I don't speak German or the church in Greece burned down with all the birth and death records and marriage records. It really reminded me, like how quickly we can lose our family history. Oftentimes within a generation or two, if we're not really sharing these stories and sharing this sort of research that we do. I went back through his side of the family tree, the Brackens, and I could not do the German side of that family. Unfortunately, because I think that would have been a totally different piece. But I then switched over to my mom's side and my mom's side turned up this really interesting ancestor. He's my eight times great uncle. His name is Squire Richard Cabell. So thankfully I'm not a direct ancestor. Um, he has his own Wikipedia page. I encourage you to read it. It's really actually quite funny because all of this is kind of presented as fact. But he was known as this very monstrously evil man. 

He lived in the 17th century in Devon. At the time, the villagers were convinced he had sold his soul to the devil. And there were all of these stories that sprung up around his death about how the night he died or the night of his burial, these, like, phantom pack of hounds came running across the moors, howling and barking at his window or at his tomb. And how, like on the anniversary of his death, he would come back. Or the villagers would see Richard Cabell out walking with these hounds on the moors. And so I am immediately obsessed with this story. If you are a Sherlock Holmes fan, supposedly this is one of the possible origins of The Hound of the Baskervilles. It's one of the legends that guess fed into that story. And so this sent me kind of down this research rabbit hole of looking into the black dog folklore of the British Isles, the Wild Hunt. And then I sort of like backed into, I say, a lot of really early Arthurian lore from the Welsh tradition. And so I had all of these various pieces of really interesting folklore, but I didn't have a story idea for it. So it took a really long time for, you know, the characters to arrive and the plot conflict to arrive. And then once they did, it was... I was off and running. But it did take a long time, and it was sparked by that very strange ancestor.

Mindy: That's fascinating. I also have a very interesting, if not quite as illustrious, but have interesting stories in my genealogy as well that do tie into my fiction, although I did not realize this until after the fact.

Alex: Oh, interesting.

Mindy: My family's also difficult to trace because on my Irish side, in the great tradition of Irish people, a lot of people got drunk and had horrible fights with their father and then just was too proud to ever reconcile it. So...

Alex: Oh!

Mindy: That happened like 3 or 4 times.

Alex: Oh, no.

Mindy: Very quickly, within like three generations. My grandmother was adopted, and my grandfather on my dad's side was no longer speaking to anyone on his side of the family. I come to find out later on that my grandmother was in an orphanage because her mother died in an insane asylum.

Alex: Oh my gosh.

Mindy: And her father died in a prison.

Alex: Wow.

Mindy: Yeah. And I found this out after the fact. I had written A Madness So Discreet, which, of course, takes place in an insane asylum. The mother was just incapable because of alcoholism. Was she in an asylum for that reason? Or was there truly a mental issue? And interestingly enough, HIPAA laws still apply. So even though her medical records exist, and I am a direct descendant. I cannot access them. And it's something that I have had conversations with various people in the medical and also the historical community, and they're just like, "Nope, that's that's going to be closed to you forever." And I'm like...

Alex: Wow.

Mindy: You know what it's like as a genealogist.

Alex: Yeah.

Mindy: But I want to know the answer.

Alex: Yeah, that's interesting. I had no idea that the laws were quite that ironclad, but I guess it respects her privacy. But yeah, from, you know, a genealogy point of view... Even from a family health point of view, that's also very frustrating.

Mindy: Absolutely. And that's the avenue that it interests me for various reasons. But also, as you said, a family history point of view. I myself am a person that struggles with depression and anxiety. And so I was like, "hey, it would be kind of cool to know what specifically her diagnosis was." And everybody that I had spoken to that was any type of gatekeeper along the way was like, "Yeah, no." Going back to talking about Silver in the Bone, and you had mentioned this one cooked for ten years. I love that. I think it's a wonderful message for writers who are listening. I personally dislike the overnight success stories very much. They're hard to hear sometimes. So I really enjoy the fact that this cooked for ten years, but also your tenacity and hanging on to it for ten years.

Alex: I think if you can get an overnight success, that is a very wonderful thing to have. And I do not begrudge overnight successes. They are successes, but except in very rare cases, I think the overnight success is a little bit of a myth because even somebody who is right out of the gates, very successful with their first book, has spent years writing for the most part. This is obviously not true for absolutely everybody, but they've put in a lot of work that you don't see. And in my case, a lot of people thought that The Darkest Minds was my debut, but it wasn't my debut novel. My debut novel was a little book called Brightly Woven. It was like a very cute, kind of almost cozy-ish. Now I feel like it would be considered pre-teen because of how dark and and how mature YA has gotten just as an age group. But it was a very sweet book. It was published by Egmont USA, which was brand new to the scene and then closed shortly thereafter. Unfortunately, Egmont's US arm did not work out and so the rights reverted back to me. But it sold okay. It definitely was the sort of thing where because I had fans of that book, they were willing to follow me then to The Darkest Minds. So it wasn't like I started from zero in terms of trying to get readers interested in my book. 

But I often tell debut authors that feel so much pressure to hit the list... There is something to be said about building your audience and your readership with every single book. That slow and steady pace of building and building and building is just as worthy of a path as immediately breaking out and having this huge success right from the get go. And obviously that huge success right from the get go comes with its own problems because then you feel the pressure to replicate that with whatever you do next and often times the success of that big series is down to a lot of factors that are pure luck. It's like the right book at the right time. Got into the hands of the right editor. Got into the hands of the right publisher. Happened to hit, like I was saying, an opening in the market that maybe the author themselves did not even predict. I think there is something to be said about slowly but surely kind of building that readership book over book. Although now that I've said that, I was lucky enough to enter the industry all the way back in 2010. So I think it is a little bit harder now that the market is so saturated. There are so many books out there. I think it is much harder and there is more pressure on debut authors. I don't know if you would agree with that or not.

Mindy: I do. I also think with the shifting ideas about publicity and marketing, you know, social media. You know. I mean, I.. I came up in 2013 and it's like social media has changed so drastically from what it used to be. And everyone's scrambling, and ARCs don't really matter anymore. And book trailers used to matter, and now they don't. Who fucking knows? It's such a dog and pony show. I just. I'm just going to write the book and hope it does well.

Alex: Yeah. Honestly, that's really all that you can do. That's something that I also emphasize a lot to debut authors. It's like TikTok is obviously been huge for the publishing industry, and I know when I was on tour recently, a lot of the Barnes and Noble managers I was talking to really credit booktok for creating a whole new generation of readers and really helping the whole retail chain, basically. And so I think it has its positives for sure. But one of the drawbacks I know is that if you are on that platform, it's totally gamified. So you have to like constantly be churning out all of this content in order for the algorithm to keep promoting your videos to then help you promote your books. And most authors I know do not have the time to do that, and they do not have the attention bandwidth. They do not want to spend a lot of their creative energy making these videos. I think if you find it really enjoyable and fun, it's absolutely worthwhile. But the best thing that you can do is just write the next book and continue to write the next book and pour your heart into that. And let the algorithm, the readers that are on booktok, do the work of promoting your book. I think that's ultimately what helps books go viral. It's not anything authors can really do on their end. It's what the reader... How the readers respond to it, and if they're posting videos about it, that's sort of, I think what ultimately helps promote books there. But yeah, the social media landscape has changed so, so much. It's really wild.

Mindy: Last thing. Why don't you let listeners know where they can find the new book Silver in the Bone, and also where they can find you online?

Alex: All right. Well, hopefully you can find it wherever books are sold here in the US, and I think in the UK, Australia, and New Zealand, it's all out. And in Canada. And then if you want to find me online, I am at Alex Bracken on both Twitter, although who knows how long Twitter will be here with us. I'm at Alex Bracken on Instagram. I'm even on TikTok at Alexandra Bracken since somebody took my at Alex Bracken handle. So I was not quick enough to join TikTok.

Mindy: I know. I'm Mindy McGinnis author on Instagram because apparently there's like 38 of us believe it or not.

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Mindy: We're here today with Farah Jasmine Griffin, who is the author of Read Until You Understand: The Profound Wisdom of Black Life and Literature. And I am so interested in talking to you about this book, particularly because I love the origin story about this, so if you could share that in the story about your father, I think it is just so profound and uplifting. 

Farah: The book actually starts with my father, who I consider my first teacher, and my father was basically a self-taught man, a working class man, a welder who loved books and loved history. He was a very gifted teacher, and he made those things very exciting to the young people in his life, and he would tell these fantastic stories that were based in history. I grew up in Philadelphia, so he would take me to all of the historic sites, where the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution were written and signed and he taught me to read and shared his passion and love for books and history with me. Unfortunately, my father died prematurely, he died when I was nine, unexpectedly. He had not been ill, it was a bit of a shock and a trauma, but he left behind a household full of books, some of which he shared with me. But many he had not yet had the opportunity to share with me, and I just started reading through his books, I think, in an effort to get to know him better, and also because I thought this would make him pleased.  And so that's this sort of origin story that one finds in the book. 

Mindy: It's so powerful. I'm fortunate to still have both of my parents, and my father too comes from a long line of workers, people that are working with their hands. He was a farmer. I do genealogy and my family have been farmers since Ireland, that's what we do. He is a farmer, that's what he does, but he went to college, he was the first person in our family to go to college and get a degree and ended up farming anyway, but he just believed that education was important. And when my sister and I graduated from high school, he was like, You guys are going to college. I don't care what you study, I don't care if you don't use it, I don't care if you choose to get married and raise children and work at home. If you educate the parent, they will educate the child. And I just think that's so beautiful. 

Farah: Yeah, it's so true. My father sought education. As you said, you know, working class man, but he went to college, got an associate's degree, loved architecture and construction and all of those kinds of things, and similar to you, our father always said to me that I would go to college. Never a question in my mind. When I look back on it, I thought, how would we have afforded it? It truly is a gift. 

Mindy: I love what you're saying about looking back, there was never a question, it was like, You are going to college. My parents were going to make that happen for me, and that's right, that is just a privilege that I did not understand was a privilege, it's a gift. 

Farah: And they decide, You know, even before your have the understanding, perhaps even before you're really in the world, that this is something that's going to be a given to their children and it's an investment in you and also a belief in your capacity, that if you have the opportunity you will do just fine. 

Mindy: So I wanna talk about Read Until You Understand. So this came out from WW Norton in September of this year, and I am just really drawn to this book because it combines literary analysis, lyrical storytelling, but also political thought into a three-fold genre. So talk a little bit of the book and like how it came about and how you went about pulling this all together into a cohesive tome. 

Farah: I'm a professor of English literature and African-American studies. I teach American and African-American literature in particular all the time. I love the literature and my students love it. I always felt like this was not a body of work that was written for people who were sitting in a college classroom, it was written for everybody, it was written for people who might not make it to a college class. It didn't place those limits on itself, and so I thought, there are people outside of my classroom outside of the university, even, or people who may have gone to university and are no longer here, who are interested in what these writers have to say. Who would learn from them? Who would benefit and actually appreciate and enjoy it? So I wanted to do what I do, which is teach and write about literature as a literary critic, but bring it to a broader audience. Books resonated with me long before I began to study to become a college professor. And I ask myself, what were those reasons? 

And so part of the autobiographical parts of the book are trying to explain the reasons why the literature that I write about spoke to me, even outside of an academic context, the way that it helped explain my life in my community, our history as a people and as a nation. And then I think the political thought part of it was - I'd been thinking of it, but I started writing it during the 2016 presidential election, and I just thought this literature is beautiful and it's aesthetically pleasing, but it also has a lot of political wisdom that I think all Americans should have access to and understanding of as we try to live in a democratic society, particularly a multi-racial democratic society. And so those three strands that are three disparate strands, all came together and made sense. I hope bringing them together makes sense for readers as well. 

Mindy: And what was that process like? I'm really curious because they are disparate, but at the same time when I read about the book, I was like, Oh, that makes perfect sense. Yes, they are disparate though. So I'm just curious what that process was like for you. 

Farah: So sometimes the starting point would be a kind of political idea that I would then trace back through the literature, that I would then trace back through something personal. And then other times it would be the exact opposite. So the parts of the book that are memoir, and I say memoir, not autobiography, 'cause I don't pretend to tell my life story, I don't even pretend that anyone would be interested in my life story. It's a section of my life that is around learning from my father, kind of a father-daughter relationship that develops intellectually, but also personally, allowing and sharing with my readers the impact of that loss, so that you get to know my father as I knew him through my eyes. And then you clearly have an understanding of the loss of him, how I lost him and what that felt like, and how my family and my neighbors and community embraced my mother and myself and just kind of surrounded us with love and support, and they say it takes a village... Well, that was a village that pulled itself together in spite of its own problems and contradictions to support this young widow and her child, and so that's the story, that's the personal story.

Then the years leading up to my father's death, his death, and the years immediately following them, my education, both formally but also informally during that period, and then the ways that I made sense of that loss. I made sense of some of the things that I believed were injustices in our lives, I made sense of them through the literature that I was reading, James Baldwin, Toni Morrison, Frederick Douglas, I made sense of them. And as I got older and began to study this literature formally, I saw the way that these authors spoke to each other through time, and the way they offered thoughts and ideas about driving political questions and also spiritual questions. And so that was the process. You know, sometimes I'd start with just a concept and other times I'd start with a story from my family that I try to make sense of, and one way of making sense of it was through literature, and then through philosophy or political thought, the threads all came together. 

Mindy: So with those threads, how did you go about choosing what to include from other people's work? 

Farah: That's such a great question. There were so many more books and I thought, Okay, This isn't an encyclopedia, you've got to narrow it down. And there were some people who I had in the first draft and I took them out. I chose, just like I do for my classes, I chose authors and books that seem to speak to each other, that I could maybe put in a conversation with each other. So for example, there's a chapter on the ideal of America and Black people's freedom in relation to it. There are many people I could have written about. I chose Frederick Douglass, Malcom X and Barack Obama, because they were all political figures, the last one, a formal politician, the first two activists. But in addition to that, all three of them were really good writers, and all three of them were people who made contributions to American writing as much as they did to American politics. All three of them were orators, very great orators. And each one of them undergoes a kind of development and change over the course of their public career where they distance themselves from mentors who have been very important to them, so that helped me narrow down those three. 

And what really was sort of the icing on the cake was Douglass is the first one. And it's clear that Malcolm and Obama read Douglass, and then it's clear - and Barack talks about this in his autobiography - that he read not only Douglass, but that he read Malcolm X. Those two figures shaped his thinking and his way of being in the world, so that really helped me. It’s like having a piece of marble and sculpting, sculpting. And it helped me figure out which of a huge body of people I could have written about, who are the people who seem to be in conversation through time about these ideas? And that's how I did it. 

Mindy: That's fascinating to me. I love the concept. Love everything about it. I think it is very interesting too, that one of the origin points for you was the 2016 election. So many people that I know had a creative fire lit underneath them by the election and everything leading up to it. I was actually promoting my book that came out in 2016, it is about rape culture. I think it came out like the week after Trump made his comment about grabbing women by the pussy. And I was just like, well, I mean, there couldn't be a better time.

Farah: Right, and it couldn’t be a better time. It could not be a better time if anyone asks if there’s a need for your book. There it was. 

Mindy: Exactly. I'm like, Well, we have this man and then he won the election, I'm like, Okay, so it's now even more relevant, right? Of course, the days that we're living in have just set us back. I don't know how many hundred years. But badly. I also see the pushback and in the creative communities, the ways things that have come into creation and achieved a physical life because of the push back and the, Hey, no, this is not okay.

Farah: Exactly, I'm working on something else, and one of the phrases that keeps coming up for me is crisis and possibility, and I do believe crises open up possibilities.  If you can see the opportunity, because we're in crisis, I think sometimes people are more willing to listen 'cause they're like, How do we get here? Wait, how did this happen? Whereas before, they might not wanna hear it if everything is just running smoothly. And if you look throughout history, some of the most critical points in history have produced some of the smartest, most interesting, most creative work, Tony Morrison, who says that her friend, the director Peter Sellers would tell her, she would say, It's just overwhelming. I can't even do my work, and he would say, No, this is the time when artists do their work. This is not the time to sit it out, this is the time when you gotta do it. And I think that what you're describing about that period leading up to his winning, but even before -  it was the time to do the work. It was the time for you to get your book out. And people who might have said, rape culture, what's rape culture? Well, they weren't gonna say that anymore.

Mindy: I had even had a young man say to me that rape culture doesn't even exist, and I was just like, Well, you get to live in a world where you get to believe that I don't. To have it then broadcast publicly for everyone, writ large... I was like, yeah, say that again. 

Farah: What's important is it wasn't just an individual who did something awful - 'cause he did something awful - but it was in the defense of him. The defense that it wasn't that bad. Or boys will be boys. And then he gets elected. It's not a deal breaker. 

Mindy: I know, of course, obscenity has kind of become the word of the day, we see these just absolutely unparalleled moments of just ignorance and racism and sexism and homophobia and all of these things just blatantly on display. I'm sure being in a university setting that you are aware of the new censorship wave that is hitting. 

Farah: We're talking about banning books and burning them, not understanding or caring that that is a huge threat to this democracy we claim to cherish. And this is why I liked writing about the books that I wrote about, is that I wanted to give people a sense of history, to a sense of perspective. History is not always a straightforward linear progress, and it's not just a given. If it progresses, it progresses because people fight and lay their lives on the line for it. Their ideas that are their tools have been bequeathed to you can help make the arguments that you need to make, because they've needed to make them before. And so just to give a sense that struggling and fighting with ideas and with art is part of a tradition, and that we can't take anything for granted.

Everything is hard won. Everything. And it can be taken away from us. I realized that intellectually, I understood how fragile democracy was, I understood that intellectually, but I didn't really understand it viscerally until these last few years. Freedoms can be taken away. And the guard rails are so... They're so weak, you know? The guard rails are based on people saying and being willing to do the right thing. That's what the guards us. Then you get someone who says, The hell with that, I don't care about doing the right thing. 

Mindy: The right thing is sometimes the hard thing, a lot of people don’t want to do that. 

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Mindy: I very recently, this past week, I'm promoting a book and I was traveling and a group had asked me to speak about dystopian literature and why dystopian literature is popular. I live in Ohio, and I live in a fairly conservative area, and I was moving through a fairly conservative area while I was doing my presentation, and one of the things that I talked about was dystopia and how it is never really gone away. This is not a new wave. This has happened before, and I talked about Sinclair Lewis’ book, It Can't Happen Here, which was written in 1935, suddenly hitting the bestseller list again shortly after the election. And I don't know that people wanted to hear that, but I was like, You know I'm gonna say it. And here's my PowerPoint slide, and you're going to look at this because I want you to think about this. 'cause you're right, things can be taken away so easily and pretending things are okay… I love your point about literal trauma of the past few years helping us kind of wake up to that, and pull together too. I think that that is very true. It lit up a fire under a lot of people, an awareness that things can be lost and like you said, it's more fragile than we ever thought. Which is why I bring up Lewis’ novel, because it is important to just even think about the title, It Can't Happen Here. That is an ironic title. 

Farah: And there you have it again, you have a writer who thought through it, really took the time to think through it and spoke in such a way that it becomes relevant decades after he wrote it. One of my favorite novels that I write about in the book is Toni Morrison's A Mercy, which came out in 2008 just after the election of Barack Obama. But what I love about that novel is that she goes back to the period before we're the United States, when people are coming over from the colonies, when the roads still have their Native American names. And everything is in flow, everything is possible, racial slavery hasn't been consolidated yet, and certain forms of Christianity haven't been consolidated as dominant yet, and so there are all these things that are possible and we forget that that was the case. And then it reminds us that certain choices were made that did not have to be made, but they were. And we live with the consequences of those choices today. Historians do it beautifully, but I think that creative writers especially do it well because it's an invitation and it's a story for you to kinda put yourself in and live with during the time that you're reading it. And it doesn't seem so far in the past. Suddenly you're like, Oh, I get it, I see how that happened now. 

Mindy: Yeah, and it makes you think about your actions today and how they're gonna echo into the future.

Farah: Exactly. I was talking to some friends about something recently, and I said, Okay, you know, This makes sense - you're just stating your opinion right now and it makes sense, I said. But think about how what you're saying is going to a wear. Are you gonna want to associate with that opinion, as history moves on, with anything that would deny people their rights? History teaches you, you don't wanna be on the side of denying rights or taking rights away that have already been given to people. That's not a good move. 

Mindy: That is a bad place to be. You mentioned Toni Morrison, and I wanna go back to the censorship question, we were talking about politics obviously, but one of the things recently that caught my eye, the list of books that politician from Texas has that needed to be questioned or should not be in schools and it was so blatantly racist and homophobic. It was just bad, I was looking at it. I worked in the library for 14 years, and of course I'm a writer, but I was also an English major, so it's like I'm familiar with obviously names in the canon, but also contemporary writers and books and everything, and I was just scrolling through it and I was just like - You're not even presenting, you're not even trying to couch this, this is just blatant racism and homophobia, and if there's no way to look at this and not see that.

Farah: Book Banners are not readers. Most of the people who are banning books haven't even read those books that they're banning, they haven't read them really. They might have read a paragraph. Because people who read books and love books would never come up with the idea of banning a book no matter how much they disliked it, no matter how much they thought it was wrong. It's an opportunity to talk about what's wrong with it. So those people who are banning books, it's always about something other than the book itself. It's about control, it's about not wanting to get certain information out there, not wanting to make certain ideas available. Like you said that in this instance, it's mostly homophobic and sexist, its racist, all of those things, and you can tell that these are people who haven't even bothered to read the books that they are banning. 

Mindy: Like I said, it was a librarian and whenever we had a challenge, which was rare, but we would have them. And whenever we had a challenge, that was always my first question, usually it was a parent, and my first question to the parent would be, have you read the book? The answer was always No. 

Farah: There you go.

Mindy: Okay, Well, go read it and then come back, and I'm happy to talk about this, But read it

Farah: I think about when I was a kid, my parents, my father, he bought this old second-hand encyclopedia and he wanted it in the house for me. And even after he died, I would read it. And it was the most racist, I mean, it was so racist. But I was so glad to have it and to read it because then I could understand things, I could see that it was racist and why it was racist. And I'd much rather do that, than not have it at all. I would much rather say, Oh, this is why we've gotten into this mess because look, this was the encyclopedia and these are the ideas it was peddling.  I think that the parental teaching moment is to sit down with your child and talk about the problematic book. That's what you do, but yeah, these people who are banning, they stand up and they're so self-righteous about it, not really knowing what it is that they are against.

Mindy: No, not at all. One of my books recently was challenged, it was upheld by the school board, thankfully, but it is about the opioid epidemic, and it is a sympathetic look at addiction and addicts, and people didn't like that. And so I had a moment because it was the first book of mine to be challenged, that I'm aware of. But by far, it is also my tamest book. It’s almost funny that this is the one that gets attacked because of drug use, but also I was like, You know, I have talked about - there's rape and there is consensual sex, there is violence and there's language, and there is drinking, all of these topics are across my books because I write about reality and I write about the real world, and this does happen. Someone asked me, they were like, Why do you think all of a sudden this book, one of your new releases, is the one that is getting caught up in this? Why not your book about rape culture, which is by far the one should be, if anything should be challenged, it would be that one. It is simply because I have flown under the radar of such things for a long time because I'm white and I'm straight, I'm just considered, I guess, safe. Or I'm never falling under the eye of someone that would be like, wanting to stop my voice, because I'm white and I'm straight/ And when I said this as a response, people were somewhat surprised, and I'm like, No, that's the reason.

Farah: You know, this book, I also write about addiction, one of the things that I write that I'm struck by, is that now, because so many people are falling victim to addiction, across-race, across class, and you would hope that there would be greater compassion and sympathy than there has been in the past. And clearly we know that there are still people who don't have compassion. It's unfortunate. It's really unfortunate. And we write anyway, we write... And like you said, because you write out of truth and you write out of a reality, and it's a reality.  This is what I'm always thinking about, is that somewhere in those places where there are people who are banning books and people who are trying to challenge those of us who write them, there's some kid or some adult who is trying to deal with their own sexuality or dealing with the fact of molestation and abuse, or dealing with the fact of addiction of themselves or a parent or a loved one, and they're sitting there feeling alone, and so silenced in a place that won't allow room for those discussions. And so I'm like, You know what, those people are reading us too. They are reading us too, and I'm grateful to be able to hopefully give them something that provides information or support or something that says, I see you.

Mindy: Yes, absolutely. And that's who I write for. I'm proud to continue doing it and people can have a problem with it all they want. I had a Zoom earlier today with a teen book group, and someone said, How do you respond emotionally, internally, how do you feel when your books are attacked or challenged, or just flat out don't like your books or what you write about? And I just said, I've come to a point. I don't care. I didn't write it for you. You can hate it. It doesn't matter to me. You’re free to hate it, that's fine. It's not for... It's not for you, it's not for everybody. 

Farah: I was a precocious reader, I think about the girl that I was, reading, thank God I had access to the books that I had access to, because they basically showed me another world, they showed me another way of being, they showed me that the very thing that could be the source of your difference that made you the object of all kinds of bad things were also the source of what made you potentially wonderful. And that would be appreciated. I imagine those readers, someone stumbling upon something I've written who hasn't been exposed to what I'm writing about, and it just turning on a light bulb for them, and that just opening up possibilities and doors. And even those who disagree with me, if you genuinely disagree, if you disagree because you've actually tried to engage it, and you think I'm wrong... I respect that,  and I welcome that. 

Mindy: Absolutely, yeah, me too. I feel exactly the same way. Last thing, why don't you let listeners know where they can find you online and where they can find your book, Read Until You Understand.

Farah: You can follow me on Twitter, although I'm not as active as I should be. You can follow me on Instagram, I’m pretty active on Instagram. I also have a website, Farah Jasmine Griffin dot com. My books are available at your favorite independent book store, the independent bookstores have been extraordinary. 

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Sherrilyn Kenyon On Letting Characters Drive Story

Mindy:             Today's guest is Sherrilyn Kenyon, best-selling US writer of the Dark Hunter series. Sherilyn has published over 80 novels under her own name and also under the pseudonym Kinley MacGregor who writes historical fiction with paranormal elements.

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Mindy:             One of the things that I really want to talk to you about today is the fact that you didn't have the most auspicious start, really came up out from poverty to achieve everything that you have done. I Would love to hear more about that. Tell my listeners about that struggle and that journey.

Sherrilyn:         My dad was a Sergeant in the Army and, and my mother put herself actually through school very later on. My siblings are 10 and 16 years older than me and I have a sister with cerebral palsy, so everything that my parents made kind of went to my oldest sister, her medication and everything. Once my baby came along, he was in ICU for the first few weeks of his life. It set us back.

Mindy:             I think it's important for writers especially, but also all creatives to hear these kinds of stories because I'm certain that there were moments in your life where you've felt hopelessness and helplessness.

Sherrilyn:         Nope, still do! That doesn't go away. I always looked at it... you know, when my mother was 16 she had my oldest sister with cerebral palsy. Given that, you know, we weren't really allowed to complain to my parents because my kids have autism but, they're mobile, they can speak. We're very fortunate. So I've always focused on what I have. To me, as long as I've got my kids and they're healthy and they're happy, I can deal with anything else. And my mother bred that into us.

Mindy:             I love that mentality. I think it says a lot. I love what you're saying about motherhood. I'd like to talk about that a little bit more when it comes to writing. Most of my listeners are indeed aspiring writers and I'm confident that there are plenty of mothers and fathers out there. And also I'm sure single parents that often feel like it's so difficult to find the time and make that time. We do have to remember that our children are the lights of our lives and the most important thing in our lives. So can you talk about finding that balance between your need for a creative outlet or even you having to hit a deadline for business reasons versus that care and that need that you have for your child and your family?

Sherrilyn:         Oh, absolutely. I mean, I was published before my kids were born. I didn't have to really make time because the work was always there. But unfortunately the writing did not take off immediately. I wasn't JK Rowling where I wrote one book and suddenly hit the big overnight success. You know, I ended up having to work two, three, sometimes four jobs while on deadlines. So the deadlines were nothing new. I mean, I had deadlines since I was a teenager, especially with my writing. I was a latchkey kid. And for people who don't know what that is, I mean my parents couldn't afford a babysitter so we got locked in the house while they were at work. So when I had my kids, I didn't want them to know that feeling of isolation or I didn't want them being raised in afterschool care and all that fun stuff.

Sherrilyn:         Cause I had horror stories from all my friends. the one time I went into one when I was real small it was, like, I'm not a very big person. And I always tend to find that one person who thinks they can steamroll right past me. And unfortunately I'm a Chihuahua who thinks it's a Great Dane. So I'll stand my ground and it's not a good idea, especially on the playground. My oldest was born, like I said, prematurely. So I brought home like a three pounds tiny little thing that would fit in the palm of my hand. To me the kids were always gonna come first no matter what. And in terms of the writing, it was always flexible. So I would wait until they were asleep. Sometimes I would sit there with them, you know, on my chest. One of those little snugglies, or sometimes when I didn't have a snugly or, I couldn't afford one. I'd have them wrapped in a blanket tied to me. They ever needed anything. And even now, I mean they're grown men, but if they need ramen at 2:00 AM they know they can come down here and go... Mom? It's like, okay, I'll go make your ramen for you.

Sherrilyn:         When I did have to work outside the home, that was when it became tricky and I'd have to do things like I worked for Ingram entertainment and I was very fortunate. My boss would let me go in at like three, 4:00 AM I could work while they were at school and then I'd be home when they got off and I'd pick them up, bring them home, make them a snack and then I'd sit with either laptop or... you know, pictures of my house shows that my computer was in a corner of, I had one in the corner of the kitchen, one in the corner of the bedroom and one downstairs where they were. So wherever the kids were playing, I could follow them room to room with my disk and insert it in a new computer and start working while I watched them.

Mindy:             That's wonderful. I like that idea. So when you were in this situation as a child, when you were a latchkey kid, as you were saying, did you always know that you wanted to write? Was that always a goal? For you?

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Sherrilyn:         Oh yeah. I was five years old. I told my mom, I'm going to be a New York times best selling writer, and my mother was putting on her makeup, doing the mascara, and she stopped and looked at me and said, honey, do you even know what that is? No, but it's on all the books you read, so I think it might be a pretty good thing to want to be. Since I wanted to be a writer. Right? My mother just kind of rolled her eyes, like, Oh my God. My Brownie manual has, when I grow up, I want to be a writer and a mother. I did it in that order.

Mindy:             That's amazing. Speaking of doing it in that order, your first book came out while you were still in college, which is very impressive. I wrote a book while I was in college, but it certainly didn't get published and it didn't deserve to be published, but can you talk a little bit --

Sherrilyn:         I don't think mine did either! Oh, I've apologized so many years for that. It's like, I thought it was great. I did. I did, but I was 18 and 24 please forgive me.

Mindy:             I totally understand. I remember when I was writing in college, um, just pecking away at my laptop and, well, it wasn't even a laptop. It was a desktop thinking that I was writing a Pulitzer Prize winning novel. And then of course going back and reading it later and just being like, Oh, this is actually just dreck. Like, this is trash.

Sherrilyn:         Oh yeah, yeah, yeah. I've got quite a few of those. But then others that I read, I'm like, that's salvageable.

Mindy:             I want you to talk a little bit about that experience in college because I remember, and I honestly, let's, let's be truthful. I feel like it is something that most of us still feel, or perhaps even as an adult, struggle with that idea that if I get published, everything will be okay if I get published.

Sherrilyn:         [Laughter]

Mindy:             So, I mean, was that your perspective as a college student? Just talk about learning that lesson that it's quite simply not true.

Sherrilyn:         I never had that perspective of it. I got published for the first time when I was 14. And my life really didn't change. Well I'd get a couple hundred dollars here and there off my writing. Really by and large what I got paid in were just copies. I'm not sure if they still have publications that pay you like that. I was just happy. It's like I've got a byline. What was I? Grade school when I started selling my own? My dad had one of those old um Oh God, what do you call them that-- the ditto machine. So, but dad had one of those so I would roll mine off and I would sell them to my friends for like a nickel. I was so happy to have anybody come up to me and go, do you have the next installment? What's going to happen to these characters next? And really that was all I ever concerned myself with. It wasn't, this was somehow going to solve all problems or just like - people like my characters! And that's cool!

Mindy:             Definitely. So when did that change? When did you hit a point where you were like, I think I would like to try traditional publishing?

Sherrilyn:         That ended as soon as I made my first sale at 14. I mean I saved up my babysitting money when I was 12 to get a subscription to Writer's Digest magazine. But to me it wasn't about making money. It was more, more people will read my characters and like them.

Mindy:             And now you've made this transition to where you've had more than 80 novels on the New York times bestseller lists. So you were right, you told your mom you were going to do it and you did it. Are you ever just set back by your own success?

Sherrilyn: :        Nooooooo. No. And I don't look back on that journey, unless they make me to, because it was really painful. Every time a book comes out, I'm giddy as a school girl to this day. I mean in the back of my mind is the old saying "neither success or failure are ever permanent." That monster stalks me everywhere I go.

Mindy:             Again, I know many aspiring writers and I was one, I was one too who really felt that if I hit that goal, if I got published, that everything would be okay. And obviously that isn't true. I have eight books out and am contracted for two more. Every day is still a struggle and I can't imagine having 10 times that out. Can you talk a little bit about retaining that drive and the energy and the creative spark when you are so prolific?

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Sherrilyn:         It's always the characters. Things will happen in life. Like, you know, most people know, I'm going through a divorce right now. So it, for me right now, it's really hard just because my attention is being drawn to everything but the writing for the first time in my life. I really can't write when I want to be and that, that's the most frustrating thing for me. Yeah, y'all have made it impossible for me to work. But you want to live off my work. And I don't understand this concept that people... I mean you know how hard it is and how time consuming it is. And the man was here for 27 years. Although in 27 years I never could convince the ex that magic fairies don't walk in and write the books at night while I, you know, the two hours while I sleep.

Mindy:             Nope.

Sherrilyn:         You know, really, I'm not goofing off the 22 hours I'm sitting in my chair working. I really am working. But in terms of finding the drive, it's the characters, it's always the characters. There's so many, you know, I write cause I want to find out where it goes. I'm not a plotter, I'm a pantser. I get these amazing people in my head and they start talking. It's like, what's your story? I got to know. And so that drive has never really gone away. But you know, unfortunately life will occasionally grind us to a halt. That's when it gets frustrating.

Mindy:             Definitely. I'm also a pantser and I feel that amount of anxiety is alleviated once I start writing cause I don't have a plot. I don't have a plan. I don't know what's going to happen. But I trust these characters to tell me their story and I just feel like they're kind of guiding everything and they're bright enough and real enough in my head that I believe that the story is there and it will unfold. Is your process similar?

Sherrilyn:         Both of my sons are actually writers. "Mom, am I doing it right? I don't know." And it's like just sit in the chair and do it. You spend so much of your day agonizing over the perfect structure of your sentence. Kid, just get in there and let them go. It may be written in blood but it's not carved in stone. You can always rewrite. My older son finally took him a long time too cause he was angsty about it and he finally got - Oh yeah, I can rewrite! Yeah. I get it now. It's like that only took 24 years. But okay!

Mindy:             It's true. Rewriting is writing. That is where I believe the real work comes in because I feel like a first draft is very much just me solidifying and moving an idea and a concept onto the page, so it's a physical object or at least a Word document that I can manipulate then in order to draw the story out, I think it's interesting you mentioned your son said your son asks you, am I doing it right? And I don't think there's any one right way to write a novel. I'm sure we all have different approaches even though it sounds like you and I are similar, I'm sure we still do things differently. Over the course of writing all of these many, many, many novels, has your process changed at all? Have you tweaked it?

Sherrilyn:         Mine hasn't, but you know, I've, I've been in the business now for almost 40 years of my God. Yes. It really is that long. Thousands of writers... well, tens of thousands of writers I've met over the decades. Yeah. Everybody has their own process and you know, one of the things that I tell when I teach workshops, if you have a beginning, a middle and an end, congratulations, you're a writer. Celebrate. Because you've got to where a lot of writers don't. Yeah, don't ever let anybody tell you how to write your books. I mean, that's... writing advice. It's like a buffet. You go in and you look around and you go, Oh, I like that. I like that, I like that. But if you don't like it, leave it behind cause you don't need it. What works for you works for you.

Mindy:             That's right. And I personally, when I have fellow writers that are friends that are very serious plotters and planners, and when I tell them about my process, they just break out in hives. They think it's crazy.

Sherrilyn:         They're horrified. Yeah. They're like, God, how can you get to the end of the book? You don't know.

Mindy:             Well, yes, exactly. They think I'm crazy. It's funny because I don't actually poke at my process a whole lot. I've been doing it for a while and I don't want to look at it too hard because I don't want to break it by examination.

Sherrilyn:         Exactly. And that's... you know my son, "Mom, explain!". It's like I can't and I don't want to like you said, I, you know when I do workshops and stuff I'll teach people - this is what a plotter will do. We're called pantsers Cause we set our butt in the chair and we go. We just go. But I can tell you all about how to plot one and how to do character stuff that I can tell you the mechanics of it. But I can't tell you what I do when I sit in my chair cause I don't know, I just daydream and type.

Mindy:             I'm so glad you say that because I am similar. I just daydream and type. I love that. Um, I feel often that I'm not even really writing something. I feel like I'm just kind of funneling or channeling something.

Sherrilyn:         Exactly. Yeah. Like I'm a medium. So the spirits are out there and they're whispering to me and they're telling it to me. I'm... All I'm doing is the conduit for it.

Mindy:             Yeah , absolutely. I feel, I feel exactly the same way. It's, it's interesting to know that someone else has that experience.

Sherrilyn:         Oh, there are a lot of us.

Mindy:             So you were saying about your characters and how your characters are, what draw you in and bring you back and keep you moving forward and keep that flame of interest alight. When you are as famous as you are. When you are as prolific as you are and when you are multi published the way you are, your characters are no longer yours alone. They have become the property of the public. So do you ever experience any type of push or pull with that concept when people have strong either positive or negative reactions to your books? Is it always just - hooray! You care! Or do you ever just have this, you know, this used to be just mine.

Sherrilyn:         I guess maybe because I'm from a really big family and we had to share everything. So I don't feel like they were ever just mine, but you know the characters have a life of their own. It's like -- get in there! I told you! What are you doing! Stop! Just Stop!

Sherrilyn:         One of the things I try to do, especially with descriptions is I write the characters so that anybody can relate to them. Criticisms I have taken is that they're like ambiguous when it comes to... I don't describe them usually more than once, maybe twice. And I do that intentionally because I want any reader anywhere to focus on their emotions because at the end of the day, we're all human. And so I want whoever the reader is to feel such a connection with that character. They can slide right into their skin, whoever they are.

Mindy:             Agreed. As a reader when I am reading something, I will put people that I know, especially when I was younger, put people that I know in certain characters skins and if there was too much physical description of the character, then it might actually knock me out of the story because I was picturing my friend or my enemy or whatever, and then they gave me too much info and it took away my mental picture.

Sherrilyn:         Yeah, exactly. It's like, no, I focused on, what the meat of the character is and what matters to that character and you know, their reaction to things more than I weigh this or I weigh that or I'm this tall. Unless it's something where I'm doing it to make a point. Like in the case of Ash, he's 9,000 feet tall and it's problematic for him. When you're unnaturally tall or you're unnaturally short, that that does become an issue. Or in the case of Bride, Bride's not the biggest heroine I've ever written. She's just the one who had the biggest problem with her weight. So, you know, unless it's something like that that I'm writing, you really aren't aware of their, their physical descriptions or limitations or not limitations.

Mindy:             So speaking then about fans identifying so closely with your characters. Do you receive a lot of, um, emails, tweets, DMs, people reaching out to tell you what the books have meant to them, or a character has meant to them?

Sherrilyn:         Oh, God, love them. Yes. Yes, I have. And I love it. Yeah. It's all about that connection.It's what I got into this to do. It's to make people care about my people. Although, you know, some of them... You're allowed to hate Apollo. Apollo, you can hate!

Mindy:             Well, that's why... I had an event last night and there was a girl there who told me, she said, I'm really mad at you about the ending of one of my books. And I said, that's awesome. I'm really glad that you're mad at me because I made you care deeply about something that never happened to a person that doesn't exist. It's a huge compliment.

Sherrilyn:         Absolutely. Yeah. Yeah.

Mindy:             So tell us a little bit about Hex Life.

Sherrilyn:         Oh, that's the tiny little short story I wrote with my son. There are a lot of short stories in there from other writers. That was fun cause it was a, an idea that my son had and he actually wrote the first draft on it and he's like, I don't know how to finish it. Mom, can you help? And so I got in there, I'm like, okay, I gotta fix your grammar. And then I fixed a couple of other things. He's like okay, fine. It's our story now, Ma. We had a lot of fun with it and I'm like, well, can I put a Hell Chaser character in? And he went, sure, go ahead. Just take it over.

Mindy:             Tell us then about At Death's Door.

Sherilyn:        At Death's Door is also a Hell Chaser, Dark Hunter book. No spoilers cause it just came out. Oh my God. I let one drop real bad at Dragon Con. And I knew I'd done it the minute I said it. And everybody got real quiet. And I went "y'all didn't know that, did you?" No, we didn't. I, Oh God, no I didn't. Yeah, I did. Oh, it's about Belinda who was turned into a voodoo doll, living voodoo doll, really get to go into the Caribbean West Indies, folklore of which I've been wanting to do in the past two books but was trying to hold back so that I could really delve deep into it with the third book. Um, so I, you know, it looks at the loa, um, the hero is one of them. Uh, he's actually a psychopomp so it's, it's really different to me, and it was very cool to write.

Mindy:             And tell me a little bit about some of the research that you did on that. The culture and the, the magical systems and everything involved there.

Sherrilyn:         My mother's best friend was a Gullah woman. There's some hoo-doo involved. My aunt Berta would do a lot of hoo-doo, root work and stuff like that, which not necessarily all of them do, but Berta was a real big on the root work, grew up around it. And so, you know, as a little kid, it's like, one day I'm going to write about these. And she'd always make me little poppet dolls for different gifts and different things. And I've got... they're all over my house. That's what actually got me first interested in all the different kinds of poppets that were made because they're not all African or West Indian. They're also a lot were made in Europe, which most people don't realize that were done. Um, so just kind of been a lifelong interest of mine.

Mindy:             With so many books out there, so many series running. And you were saying that you actually let something slip before when you were on a panel. Do you ever hit a point where someone asks you a question and you don't know the answer? Cause you can't remember what you wrote?

Sherrilyn:         Knock wood. Not yet, but I have had people ask me things that they were mistaken and they'll argue with me and I'm like, no, I'm pretty sure I'm right.

Mindy:             So last question - what are you working on now? What do we have to look forward to here?

Sherrilyn:         Queen Of All Shadows. I don't have a date for it yet. I hope it's going to be out next fall. That's a book that I actually started a billion years ago. It was supposed to come out. Oh, was it after Zarek's? No. Um, it was the book that was supposed to come out instead of Unleash the Night. !hen I first sold Dark Hunter, I had, I don't know, 60 to 70 books that were in partial states of completion from, you know, my teen years. I've been working on Dark Hunter forever. Anyway. And so his was the one I was working on when Ren said hello, you don't want to tell his story, he's a loser. Put that manuscript aside, come talk to me. And so I'm finally getting back to it. It's only been, gosh, what, 15 years? 16 years?

Mindy:             I understand. The first novel I ever wrote, I wrote in college and 15 years later is when it got published and is actually my best selling book. But I do understand returning to something like that.

Sherrilyn:         Yeah. Yeah. And it's very different too because you go back and go, I hope I'm a better writer now.

Mindy:             Oh, for sure. Um, I, I definitely was. There's no doubt. If I weren't then something has gone horribly wrong.

Sherrilyn:         Oh yeah. Yeah. But in the back of your mind, you're like, maybe I'm not. Maybe I'm fooling myself. I don't know.

Mindy:             So what you're saying is that imposter syndrome never stops?

Sherrilyn:         No, never. Never. Never.

Mindy:             That's good to know. And tell my listeners where they can find you online.

Sherrilyn:         I'm at mysherilyn.com Thank you, mom. Let me spell that cause my mother was unkind. I put her through 36 hours of labor supposedly, and that was her curse on me. Um, it's M Y S H E R R I L Y N.com.

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